been living from apartment to apartment with little time to listen, and yet the files i listened to seem to have even more of a hold on me when i can't listen to them. find myself becoming more & more .. well, gay, than before. going into gay bars. looking for men on gay.com. i also find myself, since it's summer, wanting to be more of a jock again. i think that's what i'll do, too. especially since i might be moving south ... where it's ALWAYS summer ...