My quest for self-mastery begins here. Having searched the internets for a way to achieve this, I have found this site, a haven for like-minded people. I\'m ready to open my mind to hypnosis so I can shape myself in ways that I choose, but there is one primary snag in my plans: I am having trouble going under. I\'ve downloaded audio files, and I\'ve made plenty of my own, but I just cannot lose myself to hypnosis or surrender my awareness for even just a few minutes. My guess is that the recordings are fixed and even when I design them to be long, I may take a while to go under, and the recordings proceed without me and leave me behind. Perhaps I need to be put under by an actual person, one who can monitor and respond to my deepness in trance. I shall begin to pursue this. I will achieve trance, eventually. If there is anyone reading this who believes they can put me under via Chat (on this site obviously), then send me a message. My goal is to have a trigger phrase I can use in audio recordings (ones that i can make myself with the computer voice) to put me under instantly. Obviously the trigger would have to be a phrase that couldn\'t be accidentally said in public but ideally not some ridiculous-sounding phrase either like \"strawberry gorilla.\" Something reasonable. Also, if I was to be put under by someone, I would want that person to make me do something after I woke up. Not something crazy or humiliating or embarrassing, but just some temporary little thing that I couldn\'t control or remember, just as a demonstration that the hypnosis actually works. Oh, and I don\'t want to be anybody\'s slave or anything like that. I just want a trigger. So no funny business. Also, I love the story Fan Mail by Covert Hypnotist on the Erotic Mind Control Story Archive. I\'m a dude and obviously I don\'t want what happens to Mary Jane in that story to happen to me, but some of the hypnotic methods and things said while in trance and the way she lost control I found to be incredibly enticing. If you are willing to put me under, and you are FEMALE, I\'d be willing to experiment a little. But just for fun. I don\'t want my life spiraling out of control like with Mary Jane in the story. Again, if there is anyone out there willing to put me under via chat, just send me a Message, (or leave me a comment) and we can work out a time. Females are ideal. Thanks, EmperorDraconis