This day I didn't have much time to practice with inductions.
However I got some valuable lessons out of it.

After getting advice i tried to put it in practice,tried to follow the recommendations and tried the recommended files/methods.

I thoroughly recommend

http://www.warpmymind.com/Files/3717/how-to-listen-to-a-file.php

From ocntrl, and his youtube channel

http://www.youtube.com/user/kaosocntrl

How to listen to a file and hypnotic test files were extremely useful for putting me on the right track.
Though , I must admit I have yet to see precise effects from any files.But anyway its only been 3 days so far so patience is the key.

I want it to work, ,more, I want to experience how it would feel if it worked..

He uses an example where your hand is supposed to stick to the table.

(same applies to any other suggestions like cardigans itching foot for example)

I really focus on my hand being stuck, I have accidentally stuck my fingers with glue more times than I would enjoy, so I know the feeling.
After a while he instructs you some times to semi awake and try to lift it.

On a side note, I didn't get into trance, maybe that was why I'm not seeing any results.Also the files depend on a trigger, that although I listened to many times, still has no effect on me.Asl always :(

So , I really try to feel it ,I imagine it ,I focus on it to the point that, if I didnt try to lift it and opened my eyes I could have believed it really was stuck.
But then comes the dreaded tests, all of them from the first one to the definitive at the end of the file before the awakener.

Eyes opened, hand lifted,no effort.Well I lie, I DO feel some resistance but it doesn't come from the conviction that the hand is glued, but rather from the fear that if I really try It will be lifted easily and I will be very disappointed, and I don't want to feel that.

What keeps me from going into trance?

I don't know what but I certainly know how:
Do you know that feeling you have when you are extremely sleepy and sitting down
, and sleep start overtaking you? For example after a night of studying with no sleep.
Your head starts bobbing and you feel like falling(into sleep) but then, all of a sudden, you get kicked back up by the feeling of your head and your body dropping asleep towards the table, and think "OKOK that was close, I must remain awake".

Well when I listen to inductions that's exactly the feeling I get.Was I getting asleep?

I read some comments about trance today,I don't remember exactly who said it(maybe it as a file or maybe some oppinions combined) or the exact words but they can be summarised as follows:

"Trance is like sleep, you don't 'try' to sleep, you know when its supposed to happen and you set the environment so it happens, you LET it happen but you don't actively try to sleep.If you do so, you end up unable to fall asleep,the more you think about it the harder it becomes.
Same applies to trance, you just let it happen, because you know you enjoy it .You don't seek it.
Given the circumstances the hypnotist helps you prepare you just let it happen,because its natural."


Certainly I have much to learn from that lesson,however, I have been falling asleep my whole life.I have developed a lot of confidence in the fact that
even if I lose conciousness I'm still going to wake up fine(and more rested!).
I KNOW what to expect of sleep, I know how it FEELS.And more importantly, I have established a routine kind of a ritual, with a place,that heavily conditions my mind to fall asleep when performed.(Checking news-sites,taking a shower, changing clothes ,getting into the bed and turning the lights off.For example.)

But, I have no such anchors or habits with trance.I absolutely don't know how its supposed to feel.

Maybe every person experiences it differently, but how do they KNOW they experienced it if they have no reference to match against.

I'm confused, but still trying.

In my short and mostly void life I have learnt some things, some important things.
I have developed the habit of attaching a lesson at each day.

Today's lesson is an easy one:

-Do not attempt trance before going to sleep as a newbie.

I don't know how many times I might have seen that, certainly many, and still,I did it.
Started at 12AM, somewhere in between I fell asleep and woke up at 6:30AM(more or less)with the feeling of having being slapped out of a dream.
Damn! The dream was going  great indeed!
On a sidenote, I have been unable to remember what i dream for ages.And since I started listening to inductions its getting easier and easier every night, and the dreams make a lot more sense and are "more vivid"
Anyway, Its good to make mistakes if we learn from them, so no more falling sleep in future attempts.






So I will keep trying.But not before bed time.
And damn, If I don't succeed it wont be for lack of effort.


-BDweller