three emails today 1st was rely great, made me go to the bathroom lock the door and strip naked, folding my clothes neatly. i then had to say 'I love being hypnotized, I want to be hypnotized, I need to be hypnotized' before i could put on each item of clothing. except there was a twist, i could only remeber the words once after i masterbated myself to orgasm. i swear i nearly pasted out 2nd (which thankfully i read after the first) is making me realy honry every time i think about it, but is also stopping me from being able to touch myself. i am alowed to contact the emailer to get permision and he said he will be on in the evening but which eveinging 3rd makes me send any hypnofiles that i would send to me instead couldn't remeber most of the content and chances are i'll forget aboutt he journal too till tomorrow