Was it really an hour? Yeah I dunno I didn't check the time, really when I started. It was a while though. Eventually I gave in and beat my cock and poof. Jock mode off. I've, in a way, confirmed it though that my jock off switch is an orgasm. I watched baseball, I even videoed myself for a bit to see what I sound and look like as a jock haha. Anyway after that I think I should give the file a rest already, before I go even further into it. Unlike most people who do choose to jock out, I can't, because I do need my creativity as I've already stated. Being stupid was fun for a while, but looking back on it I don't want it to be who I am. Either way it's like being a werewolf, y'know. I have that jock in me now. Yes, it's a part of me. I can still feel it, but I'm not going to allow it to run free anymore. I didn't have a long run with this file. No offense to those guys who did go all the way with this file. In a way you guys are lucky. You're in a position wherein being a jock won't do you any damage. I'm planning on moving to Australia one day, and it's pretty expensive there. I need cash. And I have... ambitions. If I do experience some aftereffects I'll put them on this journal. I do think though that my jock side will come and try to push its way out from time to time. Like I said the files instilled that jock persona in me and. Yeah. I can switch it on and off. Could come in handy, but I think I'd rather keep my artsy self intact. Plus I'm already into bodybuilding. Sports, not so much. But hey, who said being a designer was ever a bad thing? Jocks? Bullies? Meh. High school drama. I don't want to live in that shadow anymore. I want that brand in me. I wanna be that guy who looks like a massive imposing meathead but is a designer. I want both sides of the equation. I realize that now.