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Still Alive!

by izatga88

Sorry for the week-long disappearing act. I had a migraine at some point over the last day or so & was completely stuck in bed all day. The weekend itself.....it was probably the largest emotional roller coaster of my life (or at least in recent years). I hadn't heard anything from her through Wednesday, so I just gave up & went over to her place later in the evening Thursday to see if she was around & okay. As it turns out, she must have started having issues working sometime around Wednesday, then completely took off work for the rest of the week. It took a bit of knocking and waiting, but she finally answered - completely naked and giggling.

I chewed her out a bit for not calling me back when I'd asked her to (seriously, it seems like no one EVER does), and I asked her to catch me up on everything going on. Basically, she'd gotten sick of going to work and had stayed home the entire day to fuck around with herself - she even admitted to possibly getting a pizza guy to come over in a few hours & paying him with sex (I was VERY worried that could be misinterpreted into a lawsuit of some kind). It was pretty obvious with all of the oil & lube + whatever else she was covered in that she hadn't done too much over the last 48 hours other than orgasm. Eh.....I was pretty concerned going over to her place that she was still okay, but I think I might have ultimately taken things too far, especially with her work starting to suffer.

Honestly, I'm sort of terrified that I'd even planned to keep going - my big grand finale was going to be to take her to a tattoo place and get something like "Slut" in nice lacy letters tramp-stamped right above her thong line (permanent, ......cant think of word, and um.....something about further cementing her mind to her new reality).

Okay.....no idea where this is coming rom - my mind just completely wiped clean & now I'm stuck giggling & cant type. (=_=)
I'll get more of it in tomorrow, but I'm just really disturbed by how far all of this went and......I guess I just feel really responsible.

Comments

- izatga88

Freaking shit she's off her rocker & a total bimbo now.....

- ztshp

She needs a master ASAP to reign her in

- darkenedav

you need to simply continue to train her, explain that she has to work to earn money to continue to be the slutty bimbo she is. Essentially if you wipe something clean and start building you have a lot of work on your hands. Essentially you've only just started with the foundations. You need to keep working on her building walls etc until you've at least something that resembles a house :) x

- Big_Mamba

Just give her the works slut file to listen. So she enjoys working and being a slut afterwards

- izatga88

I sent this in a PM, but I think it would be good to poster here too.

I definitely think her reaction to everything pretty much mirrors mine.......it's just that she's actually ~is~ a bimbo so far as her physical looks & such. I still look normal at least, and it's enough to give me a small reminder sometimes when I look in the mirror that I'm not ~just~ some object to be used for sex - she is though.

Even though I think and feel 100% like an air-headed slut, I can still get a brief reminder that I'm not all the way there yet. The whole thing just reconfirms just how much more efficient my modifications would have been if I'd have had a partner and all that a year ago.

- izatga88

Alrighty, I got my PMs sent and updated for the....eh....not-morning-anymore. Pleeeeeease do not flood my inbox.....lots of big words hutrs my poor brain. I'll get another update up as soon as I motivate myself to.

Um.....so far as today and the last couple, I've been making sure to call her every morning & get her woken up for work. I also call her during lunch if she does not call me first (actually checked in with her a short while ago & she's fine for today). Just making sure that there's someone responsible enough to support & direct her seems to be doing okay, but I'm still concerned she didn't do something weird to one of her co-workers at some point - she HEAVILY implied that she gave someone oral, but I didn't get any more details out of her other than giggling.

- mutatedbunnyboy

Nice, but a bimbo teaching a bimbo will lead one of you to brain damage. I agree, get a Master that will correct it or at least curb it back so she has some resistant... other wise thats her life ruined. BTW I'm too busy for the job.

- izatga88

I'm just......I'm a complete mess right now. I'm actually sitting here on the verge of tears - everything that's been going on as of late has been dragging back old issues with my family and all of the religious crap I was exposed to when I was younger. I've figured like forever that I'm some sort of nymphomaniac, and in a family that was as religious as mine, that's like admitting to being some dirty whore that's going to be burning in hell & in pain for all eternity.

I never really was into any of that anyways, but I still had to live around it up until I started college. I'm like 100% it probably had some influence in my wanting to just shut myself off and give into sexual fantasies and all that.....the whole experience, even if it's long behind me, has almost certainly left me somewhat socially-awkward & otherwise with EXTREME self-confidence issues. Don't get me wrong, I like what I've been doing with myself as of late (personally at least), it's just that I cant help but wish things had been different and I'd have just gone on my merry way without all of the anxiety looming overhead telling me I was doing something dirty.

Bottom line, religion sucks - I'm forever glad to be rid of it, and I look forward to the day I can find someone who understands my hang-ups & doesn't mind pleasing my insatiable thirst for cock, as a bimbo or otherwise.

- danny1988

Im honestly struggling for words here, I do think you may have gone a bit too far if its affected her job in this way. I know you didnt intend for this to happen, but I would definatly not do rash things with hypnosis even if your mad. But it says a lot about you as a person that your helping her get up and on with her job. I will disagree with most people on here I guess but I guess im the odd one out. I would say this consider making her listen to the hypnotic reset file if this is becoming a big problem. But I will agree a hypnotist may be of some help to give her some control for being able to do her job. I dont think the solution to this is compounding it with more bimbo files. I just think you need to be very careful what you do as this is someones life here. I dont mean to sound like im having a go at you im not im just looking out for this person, I tend to do that a lot it seems. I know she made you mad, but dont ruin her life over that. Everyone deserves a second chance.

- Fjm

She seems to be a lot weaker than you, you have had months of exposure and still can handle yourself and work pretty well. This situation sucks, work is not to be played with. You should fix this (hypnotic reset?) or else you may have an unemployed bimbo partly on your conscience.

- ztshp

Maybe she needs even more bimbo programing, I'm sure she'd love it

- gorgomctavish

Oh, I love irony.
Iza dear, you haven't rid yourself of religion.
You've simply found a new one :) and lo anb behold, you're recruiting new believers already....

- izatga88

Actually.....ya....I wonder about that...... Scary.

Also, I'm not sure about the hypnotic reset thing. Aside from the panic-attack that happens when I think about downloading those types of files, it's more brainwash-y conditioning that's got her hooked. She isn't just going to stop having the most insane & awesome orgasms she's ever had just because the audio tells her to disregard the files she's listened to. The files I'd left her with (and I told her to lighten up on listening to them for a while) serve more to keep her immersed in her bimbo-reality rather than actually shape it......it was mostly my physical stimulation that did that to her.

She made it through work today at least. I think I got her to calm down a little. Either way, look forward to tomorrows main post & I'll get the juicy/disturbing details added.

- danny1988

I do agree with Fjm, even though the reset files make you anxious this is not you its her who will be listening to them. Tehy will work one because all she is feeling is in her mind and without the suggestions there she will snap back to who she was. This sort of happened to me a bit with some feminisation files but they forever changed me. I definatly dont think more bimbo files are a good idea its just making things worse. Ztshp it nuts tbh, and you need to remember this is someones life here... Sorry for my succinct response im tired and need to go out.

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