Blah....I'm having one of "those days" right now. We actually just got back from having our hair done - I refreshed the absolute blackness of my hair (it's nice & long & silky - tickles my boobs in the shower~) since I still have REALLY white skin and such (I ~was~ going to try blond, but both me and my stylist figured I'd be too washed out like that). My BFF actually went nuts & tanned all over yesterday before we met up, and she tidied up her blond hair.

We had a great time both last night & today, it's just.....eh....it bugs me that it feels like all my life is now is sleep>eat>work>sex>repeat. April's been really amazing in that my job has picked up & I've been pulling in bonuses all month and stuff, but it just feels like I'm doing the same thing over & over and nothing really new or fulfilling is actually happening.

More than anything, I'm probably just venting. I was asked recently in a PM whether or not I figured everything I'm doing has been worth it as of late, and I'd still say it is - life is just so much more infinitely fun now than it used to be. I just cant help but feel like somethings missing. My major goal for now is saving up for cosmetic work. My doctor says I'm as healthy as I'll ever be, I just need to drop the cash on the surgeon's office desk......I know ~blah blah blah FreeImplantsWebsite~.......I just have this constant worry that I wont actually be able to make it happen before I'm 40 (keep in mind, I have a MASSIVE pyramid of student loans) - a person isn't exactly dead at age 40, but that'd be sad if I took that long at this rate.

Otherwise, not much going on. I have a few plans to cook a bit this weekend, otherwise I'll probably be indoors for the next few days.

Before I forget, I officially had the absolute most awesome orgasm EVER this past week - it's going to take a long time to for get this one. Actually, now I wonder if I haven't ruined future ones......anyways, most of everything happened like normal, but for whatever reason, I'm sitting in my desk chair, and it feels like there's an earthquake under my ass while I'm doing my usual stuff. I mean, it's not like it was the first time my legs/hips ever started going on their own, but this was like transcending to another state of existence - I've never felt anything like it......I was so exhausted (pleasantly) afterwards too. Hopefully I can get that to happen again in the future.