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Day Off

by izatga88

Been super-busy lately & finally got myself a day off today. It's like crazy-bright in the house this afternoon, and I figured I'd clean the place up a bit after lunch, so I sat here at the PC while eating & checking websites.....I figured I'd pop by here for a sec and see if there've been any new uploads recently.

WELL, as it turns out, Minerelaxer put up a new file "Bimbo Curse" that's a NLP, sub, bi file - much to my delight, it actually seemed to be intended for girls, so I figured I'd give it a listen as I did the housework.

BIG mistake on my part. Within minutes of it starting (I had my earbuds in), my legs were giving out. I wound up just sitting blankly on the couch listening for the duration of the file. The actual contents of the file are sort of swirling around in my head still, but what I can remember of it (actually feels like it is quickly slipping away) didn't suggest there were any bizzaro directives given, so "Bimbo Curse" gets a pass in my book.

When the file came to an end, I immediately caught myself jumping up practically screaming "What!? What just happened!?" - I totally zoned out, barely even realised the file had ended, and I found myself completely soaked straight down my leg in my own juices, with everything feeling like I was throbbing in my panties. It's STILL not stopping either here.

Honestly it's everything I think i could possibly ask for in a bimbo-oriented file. As....hard as it is to "let go" and just let instructions wash over me when I'm not completely unconcious, I found myself trying really hard to pay attention to what was being said, only to have the spoken words dance around in my brain and confuse me even more. I'd think I'd here a particular set of words, my mind would try to latch on & understand them, but then the voice would say something similar, but different & the original meaning my brain was working towards would instantly fade away. Again, I had a serious HOLY SHIT moment when the file finished and I snapped back to reality.

Just wow....I think I'm going to have to have to pass this one around. The voice used, the way the sound bounce back and forth, the playful way everything is worded (even confused me for trying to intently follow along with it while awake)......just wow.....the damage this is going to do to me - I'd love to see what this would do to someone like my BFF or Cookie over at Tumblr when they actually have 24/7 access to guys that are "in" on their bimbo stuff. I'm trying to internally debate the importance of remaining sharp for work and school here (it's all been going great as of late actually), but I haven't had such a shock to my system in a while, the bimbo in me is starting to really want to surface again and take over.

I dont think I'm going to be winning against it.


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- izatga88

Ugh....yeah....even just trying to proofread that back, it feels like just that one listen is unraveling all of the work I did to make myself smart & college-ready again. It's totally silent around the house, and any time I take a pause & stop thinking of writing or anything, it feels like my personality slips a tiny bit. Fuuuuuuuck.....I'm going to be such a mess if I'm like this when my downtime ends.

- The_Fabled_Aesop

Heh ... do you really want to beat back the bimbo inside you or do you want to relax, give up your self-control and let the bimbo win?

- darkenedav

ah you just need a bimbo vacation ;)

- izatga88

I left a comment and a rating on the Bimbo Curse file's page. I left it running last night while I was in bed and it definitely had an effect on me - I'm very impressed with it so far.

It's nice & refreshing to see such a well-made file when it's been seeming as of late that a majority of the stuff that gets uploaded is oddly enough, more intended for guys than for girls. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that it's been a factor in my staying away from the site in more recent months. Maybe it's something that was always happening, and it just took me a long time to notice it. Either way, I'm glad I finally found something I like after so long & might be compelled to give more feedback on it after I've used it some more.

- zapnosis

Glad you're doing well, Iz. I just wanted to ask, (and you know that you don't have to answer, but) in your clear-minded state, do you have any regrets about doing all This Stuff over the last 2-3 years? I know that's a pretty big question, but you seem to be up to it!

- izatga88

It's that I never had the sort of relationship that my BFF (I seriously almost just fucking entered her name dammit) and people like Cookie on Tumblr seem to have - a significant other that is not only "in" on the kink, but someone who takes it on themselves and pushes you to heights you never thought possible of yourself.

Alone, the only person I'm letting down if I decided to just slack off for a day was myself. Having a second party also affirming your new reality also makes it more real, and I wasn't getting that so much outside of the site here on a consistent & daily basis. As dumb as it is, a constant thought on my mind was "what if this is all in my head" - even when I was rolling around on the ground naked and cumming my brains out. I can at least look back & I KNOW now since so much time has passed that I ~have~ in fact become a lot more loose and open to experiment some dirty things I'd never have done ages ago, and I dont think that will ever leave me, even if I smarten myself up for school or work more.

If someone randomly popped up in my life & said "Hey, here's tens of thousands of dollars, you get to have all of this cosmetic surgery and you have to change your major to "makeup artist", and you'll be trained to be some sort of trophy wife/fuckdoll", it'd be everything I'd ever wanted out of life and more. Sadly, as per reality, a psychology degree is not worth pewp for anyone in their twenties and I could be doing better in the bra-volume department.

- zapnosis

Thank you. Don't worry, whether you feel it or not you're still young!

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