Tuesday 02-10-05 I started listening to a new file with the name SuggestiveFeminization.mp3 since Sunday and and this file seems to have an effect on me in that I can't stop listening to it I even went out to by myself a portable “MP3 Player” so I can be listening to this file at work. Development so far mmmm lets see ! 106 cm Breast, 106 cm Hips I also have noticed that my nipples have been raised slightly. On a personal level my best friend tried to commit suicide last week and I was the first one there, it was truly a gruesome scene it started in shower and went into the living room where I found her naked on the floor still bleeding I took her to the hospital she seems alright now. Well after talking to her it was all because of her boyfriend who was cheating on her. She texted (SMS) me and I phoned her immediately to invite her over so we can talk. How do you talk someone out of suicide when you yourself have thoughts of suicide thinking that maybe I will return as a female in my next life. I hope this story has an happy ending. To the comments I received thanks especially to gurlbidesign. I know off hormone treatments its just too expensive for me at this times. I know off sex reassignment surgery again too expensive.