Nicole just text me. She said love bug, I love you so much! I have never felt anything like this before, not even close. As usual you are right! I will definitely be shooting up again! I would love to shoot up with you! I love this! That is so perfect! I knew she’d love it and yes, I will be doing i...

Speaking of Mike, Nicole just text me. She is there and will be shooting up in a couple minutes. She is going to love it!

I was on my way to becoming a hooker when I was with Mike before. We have had so many conversations. He asked me if there was anyway I would move in with him full time and permanently. I told him if he started an escort business, and I became his hooker, I would move in with him. I promised him once...

I think most don’t understand the lifestyle we live and plug in their own lives and want to see this be a fairytale. It isn’t ever going to be a fairytale in some respects, and in other respects it is a complete fairytale. I say that from my perspective because I’m living happily doing what makes me...

I get questions here sent by private message. One of the most frequent is Justin is so good to me why would I keep having affairs and doing coke all the time? The reality is we set out to have a lifestyle where we would do anything we wanted. I am allowed with his blessing to have an affair anytime ...

Nicole wanted me to do her makeup. She wanted a Smokey eye look and extra big pouty lips, and fake lashes, which she struggles with, and a dark matte brick red lip. Omg she looks like a Hollywood diva! She has a black Mimi dress that she is bulging out of and a pair of rep pumps with a 3-4” heel. Sh...

Love the first line of the day. Nicole is excited and nervous as she is heading to Mike’s this morning. I know she will love it. I get to spend another day with Justin all to myself. He has been working hard on our big rec room. He ordered a pool table for it. It has become his man cave for working ...

Nicole keeps asking me questions about shooting up. I told her I can only go by what I felt and it was really the most euphoric feeling ever for about 15-30 minutes followed by just a hazy calm kind of feeling. I will do it again for sure. You have to decide if it’s right for you. Personally how I k...

I got back from Mike’s around as hour and a half ago, took a shower, dolled up and did a line for Justin and we made love. I just made love to Mike before I came home. I love being in love with 2 men but Justin will always be special. Nicole is probably going to want to do a line with me and have se...

Was thinking how nice it is to do coke and not having to hide sneaking lines in the bathroom, going without it at times, and Nicole using now. It’s such a relief. I feel so good now!

I did tell Mike not to ever let Nicole get hooked on heroine or that’s it for us. I want her doing it so I can do it and she can’t say anything, but occasionally. Our plan is working perfectly. Nicole doesn’t even realize it but to accelerate her getting hooked on coke she is hooked on meth. Mike is...

Yes I love being sneaky. I made a deal with Mike to have access to Nicole under one condition. We got her completely hooked on coke, and ultimately he would start shooting her up too. Mike now can have sex with Nicole and make sure she starts doing more and more coke so she is like us. I want her sp...

Nicole must be nervous. She keeps asking me questions about shooting up. She asked me if I crave it the next day after doing it. I said yes, but not in a addictive withdrawal sense. It is more of a I felt so good after shooting up I want to feel that way again. So from a physical craving standpoint ...

It’s so hard to leave here, I’m really falling deeper with Mike. I think starting next week I am going to start staying 2 nights here Friday and Saturday. I don’t seem to have the time I need to make love to him more. We have already done 7 lines:). I’m not complaining, I can see my use is going up ...

Nicole text me and asked if Mike shot me up last night. I said yes, but it was a one time thing until October. She asked me what it feels like. I said the first 15-30 minutes is impossible to describe! It makes you feel so euphoric it is hard to even explain! I love it so much! I asked her if she st...

Mike said he is so looking forward to me moving back in with him. He said when I left he never thought he would see me again and it was so hard. I said I know, I love you and am looking forward to moving in again. I will be here Friday late afternoon to Monday morning. We have gotten so close now. H...

Mike shot me up last night. Almost forgot how good that feels. I love Mike so much. It is such an intimate feeling when someone makes you feel so good. I won’t do it again though until October, but I can’t wait to start doing it again periodically. Nicole is going to love it! I love that she is doin...

I just text Nicole and told her I was doing it, and she said love bug, you should wait until October! I said I know just one time, I promise. She said she is nervous but wants to try it and will on Sunday. I told her Goodnight. Mike is getting ready to shoot me up right now, I love it!

When I am with Mike I do 25-30 lines a day. I probably smoke close to 2 packs when I do that much. It is the best combo ever. I know when I finally move in with him, I will be doing 25-30 lines always which is so nice. That is extremely hooked which I love. Nicole really took to it. She already does...

She is going to shoot up Sunday. I wish I could be there when she does it. I know she will love it. I just hope not too much, that could ruin her and wouldn’t be good. But if she does a 1/4 of a dose like me she will be fine and Mike promised that is all he will give her. It is awesome but it really...

Nicole has been texting me. She said that really got me good but you wait love bug (that’s what she calls me.). I will get you back good. Mike really played it well. He had her really believing he was going to have her completely addicted to heroin by the end of the weekend, and I was helping him do...

Now I have the man I love to do lines with all night and make love to!

I had to call it off she was so freaked out. Mike just gave her a line and is hugging her. We took her coke and cigarettes away and Mike had a syringe ready to shoot her up a full dose while I held her arm which was handcuffed. She virtually flipped out, now she said wow you made that so real, and n...

I so wish I was there right now. She must be freaking out. I’m going to make it worse and more real. On my way. I am sitting in a lot 5 minutes away.

Mike just text me she just pulled up. Told me to come in 20 minutes. I will have her needle ready and we will make love after a line

Omg this is going to be so great. She is going to get to Mike’s house and I’m not going to be there. He is going to bring her in the bedroom and tell her he has a surprise and blindfold her, and then handcuff her to the bed, and tie her legs too. He is going to turn ugly on her and let her know that...

I love seeing the changes in Nicole. She has opened up so much since she started using coke on a regular basis. She even told me she now truly understands why I fight so hard to have my coke. She said if she ever had to she would fight to keep doing it.

I’m sitting outside with Justin and Nicole. I was just thinking how things have gotten so much better. If a couple of weeks ago you told me Nicole and me would be doing lines together all day, and I was back with Mike, and Nicole is sleeping with Mike and is going to shoot up Sunday I’d have said yo...

I still have one thing I always wanted to do and if my boobs stay and my body comes back, I want to be an escort. I always wanted to try that. I think I would only have sex with someone after several dates, and off the clock. I think it would be fun! We came here to try things, so I want to try thin...

I want to be there so bad when Nicole shoots up but I also know it is going to be a very special intimate feeling between her and Mike, and there is a good chance she goes from fucking him to making love to him Sunday. I’m not sure why it works that way but it does. I guess because the person pushin...

Nicole text Mike and said I am really ready to have you shoot me up Sunday? Mike told her he would love to be the first to shoot her up, but said he would only give her 1/4. Nicole said yes, that’s what I want to do the first time. If I like it how soon can I do it again? He said doing just 1/4 the ...

So I was feeling rather guilty. I feel like I want Nicole and have told her to keep from getting emotionally involved with Mike. That isn’t right. She is totally in love with my husband and sleeps with him like she is his wife, and to some degree she is his wife. I can’t tell Nicole how to be with M...

Nicole showed me her coke stash. Mike asked her if she had enough and she said for awhile. He gave her more and said well you never want to run out, and she said thank you, and said it would be awful to ever run out and he said not to worry I will never let you run out. So Nicole is officially a cok...

Nicole is discovering that she always loved coke, and is free to use it anyway she chooses, which is in a lot of ways just like me. I love how much this has opened her up as a confident woman.

Basically my formative years has been spent making sure I always had coke and sex. Before you feel sorry for me, don’t. I have embraced this life. I love coke, I love sex except now it is on my terms not beaten, abused and raped but satisfying, comfortable, and great meaningful sex with partners I l...

I don’t like to put out here all that I went through, so much so that I flushed it out of my mind, but the one good thing about therapy is it brought it all out. How I survived is hard to even understand. The one issue I share here is my bad choice boyfriend. My home life was so screwed up, it drove...

Also, I know a lot of people that read this want me to be a certain way. I know who I am. I am and always will be a coke whore.

This is for the person that sent me the long e-mail that has read this entire thread 2 times. First, let me say thank you. You really went into great detail, and I never really looked at some of the complimentary things you put so much effort into detailing. You mentioned that you thought I probably...

I told Nicole that I am spending the night with Mike tonight, but Saturday night I want us to make a sex crazed night for Justin. We will see how much he can make love to us before he can’t do it anymore and then we will have sex the rest of the night. I told Nicole it is such a turn on to see her o...

I asked Nicole if Mike shot her up and she said no. She was nervous to do it, as I was, but she still wants to try it. Maybe we can do it together down the road. I said I’d love to be there for your first time. She said you will be, somehow you give me courage! She also said Mike wants to have a thr...

Just did my first line of the day with Nicole. She didn’t get home until after 9 last night. She said she had one of the best days she ever had. Mike treated her like she was royalty, but he is that way, so no surprise. She said for the first time she felt free. She always loved through the eyes of ...

This might not be good. She is asking me what it feels like to shoot up. I told her slow down girlfriend you are like a kid in a candy store. Get used to being on coke and meth first. You will have plenty of time to do that, just put on the brakes a little. I knew he would want to shoot her up. I di...

She told me she feels free for the first time ever. She asked me if I would be upset if she stayed there for dinner. I said no enjoy! I will tell Justin you are at your Mom’s. This gives me quality time with Justin! More sex! Nicole is so loving her coke:). I knew she would, she is as happy as I hav...

Omg! Nicole had sex with Mike 2 times and is still there. She made me cry. She sent me a text and thanked me for giving her the courage to do coke on a regular basis. I’ve always loved it but was always afraid to get hooked. I’m learning fast not to think about it anymore, just enjoy it. You were ri...

Wow Nicole is looking so hot to go see Mike, heels and a tight dress and he is going to want to fuck her as soon as he sees her. I have no doubt she is going to sleep with him. She may say maybe, she will! I hope she does because she will see the advantage of being a coke whore. I can’t wait to see ...

Nicole is nervous. I told her once she sits down, he is going to give you a big fat line. Keep the big picture in mind. Use your body to get what you need. Just think of how secure you will be. Once you fuck him your line for coke will be protected. She said I know but still nervous. I said once his...

My next plan is longer term. I am gradually going to move in with Mike but not totally. Right now it is Friday night, then it will become Friday and Saturday and ultimately Sunday too. Then by October we will be really close, and he can start shooting me up once in awhile and I can start doing meth ...

So while Justin and Nicole are having sex I text Mike about meeting Nicole at lunch at his house. He was extremely happy. I told him what a knockout Nicole is. I told him to make sure she does a line with you and do your best to take her to bed! She gets extremely horny when she does a line. I know ...

So Justin just came out to the pool. I don’t know what got me the courage, but I just went for it. My bag was on the table and I asked Justin if he wanted me to do a line, and he said yes. I did a pretty big line, and I looked I got up and sat in his lap and kissed him several times. I said to him w...

This is so awesome to watch. Nicole just did another line, she is nervous I can tell. She said I’m not sure if I will sleep with him but getting him comfortable around me so if I need more coke I can get it, I have to go meet him. Now I understand why you were always making sure you have it, it seem...