The forced gay success thread...

[samhash]

I still find myself listening to the fie even when i have told myself it is not working and it is a waste of time. I then get the urge to hear the file tell me that i want a real mans cock and that is the only thing that can turn me on.

i wanted the file to make me lust after cock and now i feel like the curse might be doing that to me. I want the file to make me want cock strong enough to act on it.

[wannabecumslut21]

So I started listening to CFG a couple of weeks ago, it was my first time with any hypnosis beyond youtube videos. I admit I always had a curious side but was skeptic that this file would do anything. HOW WRONG I WAS!!! 2 days after I started listening I only watched gay porn and was constantly fantasizing about cock. Last week I completely gave in listen to the file 3 times then went to a gay sauna and just let everything go! and I have to say it was the best experience of my life! real men giving me their cocks and I wanted every single one!

A great file that might not have turned me gay but definitely forced me to act on it

[robindf1]

So, I went off to suck cock tonight, and I couldn't get hard! =/

I've always been bi, but with a more sexual interest towards women. I want to change that. I want to be able to be pulsing while I suck dick. I want to be rock hard at the thought.

Is this the way you would go if you were me?

[sfhole2stretch]

Who said it is necessary to be "hard" while sucking cock? Erections are not the be all-end all of arousal. I'm gay from birth. I love to suck cock. I don't always get hard when I do. This does not mean I don't enjoy every delicious second of the act.

This is what bothers me about the CFG file and this thread. There is far too much stereotype and not nearly enough reality involved.

[robindf1]

I know there's nothing wrong with it. I do know that I can get a raging hard on when I'm...servicing women. That's the feeling I want for men. I want to use it to enhance my experiences, you know?

[WatDo]

[quote="robindf1":435152b/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i]I know there's nothing wrong with it. I do know that I can get a raging hard on when I'm...servicing women. That's the feeling I want for men. I want to use it to enhance my experiences, you know?[/quote:435152b/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i]

Why not stroke yourself while servicing men? Maybe it'll help condition your body to getting hard.

[robindf1]

He did stroke me. Numerous times. Limp.

There wasn't any major arousal in me while I sucked his cock at all. It was just...something I was doing because I had the urge, but I don't know if I really enjoyed it or not. That's something i'd like to change.

[presidentofpasta]

Listened to this file years ago for awhile. Gave up when I noticed it affecting me. Still haven't escaped the urges...

[ftslave67]

Hi, Prez, do you want to "escape the urges"? If you know what you want, should be able to find someone to help you out with that. Maybe a female hypnotist can make you forget all about that, if that's what you want.

[jim1]

i listened after a long time ago the file and at the same night i saw a dream and was ready to suck a cock but i woke up hard.

I dont know if thats was from file but i was afraid when i thought about what i saw and im full straight

[JoyofSub]

[quote="robindf1"]So, I went off to suck cock tonight, and I couldn't get hard! =/

I've always been bi, but with a more sexual interest towards women. I want to change that. I want to be able to be pulsing while I suck dick. I want to be rock hard at the thought.

Is this the way you would go if you were me?[/quote]



Robin, if your question is whether or not CFG is the way to become totally excited around guys, rigid at the mere sight of cock: my answer is absolutely. It's been a while since I last reported upon my experience with CFG. From that experience, I am certain that it's simply impossible not to fall in love with cock and find men attractive and desirable after listening to the file regularly.

For the past six months I seemed to have experienced a series of cycles. The files would initially ignite a period of intense gay fascination, followed by a mild recessive period, leading to sexual ennui. Then suddenly, another intense period of gay fascination. During these gay periods I would return to daily sessions with CFG and TSM. Generally, after a week with the files I would again begin to feel surfeit and uncomfortable with the porn as well as with my growing assimilation of gay interests and identification. A week or two later I would again be overwhelmed with gay desires.

In early March I became sexually dysfunctional. I couldn't maintain an erection. For over a month, the best that I could manage was a semi-erection. I had never experienced anything like this previously. My only problem with erections in the past, was that they would often occur at the wrong time: in the wrong place.

Six weeks later, I am again drooling over gay porn, only I am now as rigid as a tire iron: harder than I have been for quite awhile. I have even begun looking at faces while looking at porn. To my surprise, I'm finding a lot of them attractive. This current gay- period has now been in effect over three weeks: longer than any of the others and I don't see any secession in sight. And I'm deliriously happy about all of it: particularly how deeply attracted I find male bodies and how easily I'm beginning to dismiss, discount and ignore any sudden attraction towards women'

The other day, however, I encountered a woman who did excite me. Oddly, I felt uncomfortable with that sensation and for the first time I told myself that the feelings were nonsense because I was gay, and I proceeded to review all the beautiful gay images and feelings I had recently encountered. Like magic, the attraction disappeared. I am beginning to sense a genuine indifference towards women and I couldn't be happier.

I love listening to the files. By the second week during any of the previous gay periods, I would be weary of them and couldn't bring myself to listen. Now, I'm like a child eating candy. Every suggestion sounds so sweet to me.

So, if if you're truly hoping to suck cock in a rigid passion, I can't imagine a better way to begin than by listening to CFG regularly.

[askme3]

Hi i listened last night and still feel the same today , no affect on me .

[ftslave67]

I don't think one listen is going to make you completely gay. It might take 2 or 3! ;)

[Another]

Here's a question for all of you.

So I'm away from room mates and prying eyes for the next 3 months. Is that enough time to have the file work? I could probably go 8 if i kept the file incognito. Don't really wanna be caught :oops:

[Nate80]

[quote="Another":397ce44/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i]Here's a question for all of you.

So I'm away from room mates and prying eyes for the next 3 months. Is that enough time to have the file work? I could probably go 8 if i kept the file incognito. Don't really wanna be caught :oops:[/quote:397ce44/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i]

(Ok this started off as a "yes it should have some effect quickly" to more general advice on what can be done to help with these sorts of changes... :sorry:)

Depends on how open to it you are really, it should have some effect fairly quickly. If you really want to speed up the process, try the below:

1) Listening to it first thing (literally, before you get out of bed, while you're still half asleep, even if you need to set an earlier alarm))

2) Listen to it last thing before you go to bed (not in bed and drifting off, though looping it while you sleep wouldn't hurt). Followed up with some gay porn, masturbate to it if you feel any urges for what you're looking at, otherwise, look up how to massage your prostate ;). Cumming is optional, it's more important to explore / enjoy yourself :P

3) If feasible, listen to it on a lunch break and or immediately after you get in from college / work

4) Update your WMM Journal daily, preferably including how many times you've listened to the file since the last update, how you're feeling towards men sexually, if you've done anything "gay" and how you feel / felt about it. Also, how you're feeling about the process in general.

If you're more wanting to end up gay rather than necessarily by force:

5) During the day, particularly while you're still waiting to feel the effects, deliberately and actively notice the men around you / on TV etc and mentally rate them for sexual desirability. If you want full gay instead of bi, notice women and mentally tell yourself you're not sexually interested them. Try to rate them with your emotions (feel aroused / disinterested) than just saying "I'd fuck that" or "9 out of 1/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i" (even if you have to ham it up / fake it a bit)

As with all things in life, no guarantees.

The trick will be to relax while you listen. Don't try to watch for it to happen or for it to necessarily happen overnight. Instead just let any subtle (or not so subtle) changes in your interests happen as they happen.

Also, feel free to nurture any homoerotic urges :D

[Another]

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[/quote]

Thanks for the speedy reply. If the effect is fairly quick, I think I will try this!

I was mostly checking because it seems that the people who are having issues with it are the ones that started it, but didn't follow through. If I'm gonna start this I want to have time to finish it. Hopefully that makes sense.

[Nate80]

[quote="Another"][quote="Nate8/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i"]snip

[/quote]

Thanks for the speedy reply. If the effect is fairly quick, I think I will try this!

I was mostly checking because it seems that the people who are having issues with it are the ones that started it, but didn't follow through. If I'm gonna start this I want to have time to finish it. Hopefully that makes sense.[/quote]

Yeah, you're going to have to stick with it. But don't expect overnight success (nice one if you get it though). As you say, it could be some of those who had trouble probably listened to it once or twice, expected to be turned into a screaming homo instantly and were watching for it and got disappointed when it didn't happen.

One of the things that always surprises me with what I've done, is how subtle the changes can be - I find myself doing stuff and it seems perfectly normal. In a way, it's a bit like baking a cake - just leave it to bake and don't keep checking on it every five minutes.

Or, to put it it another way: Just kick back... relax... and enjoy... ;)

[Ryan83]

Me during the day- barely even thinks about my sexuality/sex, doesn't notice guys

Me at night (when I can let my hair down, so to speak) right before bed- EXTREMELY turned on at the thought of having sex with men and being gay. May or may not listen to CFG depending on time. I used to not find anything but the cock attractive, now I am getting increasingly turned on by the rest of men's bodies. And instead of feeling resistance like I used to, I have a part of me that says stop before it's too late and another voice that says, "You LOVE this...and you're halfway there...just keep listening and go all the way and never look back." That side is winning.

[Lifebender]

Started listening to CFG about a month ago, and already I am talking to guys about sucking them off. This is amazing! I think after I post this I am going to be stuck like this forever. Just thinking of men and getting so horny just thinking about the bulges in their pants.

[avalon69]

I've listened to GFC several times and noticed several changes. I think I need to talk to someone :-s

[avalon69]

I started listening just to see what would happen (I had a bit of a bi tendency before), I've found I've started looking at gay porn more and have been looking at women differently, like, not totally in a sexual way, but in an 'omg she is NOT wearing THAT' way :? I kinda think I want to continue, but I dunno, I guess I'm in that stage so many people in this form have talked about where they wonder if they want to keep going, am wondering if there's anyone who can kinda hold my hand through this stage lol.

[danny1988]

[quote="avalon69"]I started listening just to see what would happen (I had a bit of a bi tendency before), I've found I've started looking at gay porn more and have been looking at women differently, like, not totally in a sexual way, but in an 'omg she is NOT wearing THAT' way :? I kinda think I want to continue, but I dunno, I guess I'm in that stage so many people in this form have talked about where they wonder if they want to keep going, am wondering if there's anyone who can kinda hold my hand through this stage lol.[/quote]

Heyas, well I would say follow your heart, do what makes you happy and dont look back :)
Have a quick look at the future, would you rather be straight or bi or gay?
If you met a guy would you be happy having a relationship with the same sex?
I Dont really believe in labels, orientation is more a spectrum and not a set of boxes.
Ask yourself do you want to be gay or is it a taboo for you which makes the idea appealing. I find orientation is less about the sex stuff, for me orientation is who I connect to and feel happy being around. I dont like limiting myself to one gender I like being free I guess.
Could you emotionally connect to someone of the same gender and love them? If you think you could and its what you want go for it :)

I guess just have a think is what im trying to say, once you have decided follow that path. Its a big decision and there is no rush just follow your heart.

[redhotpump]

Just wondering what chat sites everyone likes to visit, would like to chat with some of you that have had success, enjoy reading all the posts, keeps me motivating to keep listening, be nice if we had a place where we could all bond, learn each other stories, and encourage each other

[subjerseyguy]

Found myself drawn to listen to CFG for the first time in ages yesterday. Ended up letting it run over and over again First time turned me on, but by the third time, i found myself drifting off, and think i listened to it about 5 times total yesterday. woke up this morning hard as a rock and feeling very submissive and horny... found myself drifting off and playing the recording again. Not sure whats happening. I dont think i can bring myself to suck another cock...

[Nate80]

[quote="subjerseyguy":/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/iabc8927]Found myself drawn to listen to CFG for the first time in ages yesterday. Ended up letting it run over and over again First time turned me on, but by the third time, i found myself drifting off, and think i listened to it about 5 times total yesterday. woke up this morning hard as a rock and feeling very submissive and horny... found myself drifting off and playing the recording again. Not sure whats happening. I dont think i can bring myself to suck another cock...[/quote:/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/iabc8927]

(meant in good natured humour)
Either embrace the inevitable and learn to love cock, or grab deprogram (curse?) all... yes I know, the question was rhetorical, but those are pretty much the only options. :)

Personally I say go for it, stop fighting the change and embrace it :)

I does however remind me of this joke:
Man goes in to a bar and orders 12 shots of whisky.
The barman dutifully lines them up, pours them asking what's the occasion.
"Celebrating!" Exclaims the man as he proceeds to take each one, make a silent toast, then down it.
Afterward watching him do this, the barman asks him what he's celebrating.
"First blow job!" the man announces, drunk.
"well", said the barman, "have another one on the house", he says moving the bottle to an empty glass.
"No, no, it's alright", says the man waving the bottle away, "if 12 didn't get rid of the taste, the 13th wont either".

[subjerseyguy]

That was supposed to say "another man's cock, not "another cock".

Still finding myself drawn back to the file over and over again. Still don't feel like I could act on it but if I found myself in a situation with a stronger man, I'm not sure what I would do...

[subjerseyguy]

Had a night of tossing and turning filled with bizarre sex dreams. I was submissive and serving men, and it really turned me on. I gotta believe this is the file at work. Needing to listen to it again today.

[subjerseyguy]

Another night of sex dreams surrounded by men with large thick cocks... I remember thinking I could just take a taste if I didn't get caught by someone I know. Damn. Shaking my head.

[subjerseyguy]

Another night of sex dreams surrounded by men with large thick cocks... I remember thinking I could just take a taste if I didn't get caught by someone I know. Damn. Shaking my head.

[subjerseyguy]

And I've wasted most of the day loopjng the file. Dammit.

[subjerseyguy]

Okay. I forced myself not to listen to the file at all yesterday, but i kept thinking about it A LOT. I found myself surfing the next looking at naked men. Had sex dreams about sucking cock most of the night.

And to top it off, recd an email from another member with a pretty graphic picture that i keep coming back and looking at. At first I thought it was a pre-bj picture, but when i looked closer (yes, i zoomed in) I saw a really thin line of spit from the cock to the kneeling man's cock. The member asked me what i thought of when i saw the picture. I held off responding for a while but i found myself emailing him back and confessing that i loved it and that it turned me on. I havent heard back from him...

I dont know what today is going to bring, and i am damn nervous because the next 2 days are going to be raining which means I wont be able to work outside, and will be cooped up in my house... dangerous.

[subjerseyguy]

I did my best to not listen to the file for a couple days but i found myself waking up saturday and today and queing it right up again and dozing while it played. I am so damn stuck on this file, and have been feeling so damn submissive in general that i have been doing my best to avoid contact with people yesterday and today. But god i am so fucking horny all the time.

[subjerseyguy]

I don't know if anyone is actually following this or even. Cares but I'm gonna continue posting as a record until it runs its course one way or another. Well I have had the desire to ljsten for several days but I e been talking with a couple men online about what I am goig through and possibly continuing with 1 on 1 hypnosis.
The dreams are ccontinuing and geting more realistic. I can't stop thjnking about it.

I think I'm on the verge of a very big fall...

[danny1988]

[quote="subjerseyguy":2/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/ide87f3]I don't know if anyone is actually following this or even. Cares but I'm gonna continue posting as a record until it runs its course one way or another. Well I have had the desire to ljsten for several days but I e been talking with a couple men online about what I am goig through and possibly continuing with 1 on 1 hypnosis.
The dreams are ccontinuing and geting more realistic. I can't stop thjnking about it.

I think I'm on the verge of a very big fall...[/quote:2/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/ide87f3]

It all depends are you liking the changes and whats happening?
If its what you want and makes you happy go for it I say. But if it isnt listen to one of the hypnotic resets or get a tist to help you its entirely your choice :)

[legeth]

[quote="subjerseyguy":85b/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i1e9a]I don't know if anyone is actually following this or even. Cares but I'm gonna continue posting as a record until it runs its course one way or another. Well I have had the desire to ljsten for several days but I e been talking with a couple men online about what I am goig through and possibly continuing with 1 on 1 hypnosis.
The dreams are ccontinuing and geting more realistic. I can't stop thjnking about it.

I think I'm on the verge of a very big fall...[/quote:85b/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i1e9a]I care, It's very interesting to follow. What do you want yourself though? To be straight or gay?

[subjerseyguy]

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[subjerseyguy]

I honesf ly don't know anymore. I thought I was straight but I would get these urges that I was too afraid to act on. I started listening to this file with the hopes that it would give me the courage or at least help me to maybe experiment a little and figure it all out. Now I'm realizing that I was wrong, and the cumpulsions are growing stronger. The biggest thing is that I was hopin g to make an informed decision, but its had the opposite effectn taking away my clarity and increasing my submission and desire to obey,

[danny1988]

[quote="subjerseyguy"]I honesf ly don't know anymore. I thought I was straight but I would get these urges that I was too afraid to act on. I started listening to this file with the hopes that it would give me the courage or at least help me to maybe experiment a little and figure it all out. Now I'm realizing that I was wrong, and the cumpulsions are growing stronger. The biggest thing is that I was hopin g to make an informed decision, but its had the opposite effectn taking away my clarity and increasing my submission and desire to obey,[/quote]

In that case I would suggest a hypnotic reset, if your more confused now that would give you greater clarity by removing any of the hypnotic suggestions. I know its a curse file and they say the curse removal file is the only thing that will work but its a plain lie. Any removal file will work as long as you believe it will. Curses are only curses if you believe them to be.
So either talk to a tist who can help you find clarity or listen to a hypnotic reset or both is probably best at this stage imo. Hope this helps.

[subjerseyguy]

Well I can tell you I did try the deprogramall but the next day found myself listening even more and I don't have money for emgs removal file. I'm kinda stuck riding the rapids and holding on.

[danny1988]

[quote="subjerseyguy":21/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/ic1e8e]Well I can tell you I did try the deprogramall but the next day found myself listening even more and I don't have money for emgs removal file. I'm kinda stuck riding the rapids and holding on.[/quote:21/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/ic1e8e]

I would see if a tist over on hypno-fetish can help you then. I dont know what else to suggest... Maybe keep yourself active and avoid anything that can play the file. Delete the file maybe. Or listen to something that has the oposite effect to the curse forced gay file.

[Alien4420]

The things that seem to have worked for others are as you suggest listening to a contrary file like Curse Forced Straight, or just not listening at all and letting it wear off -- which it will do gradually if you haven't been listening for a long time. And of course another hypnotist could take it out, probably the best and safest course (in terms of getting results).

The compulsion to listen is so strong that if you just erase it you'll find yourself downloading and listening again. It's freaky when that happens.

[Flowit]

[quote="subjerseyguy":9421/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/if6b]Well I can tell you I did try the deprogramall but the next day found myself listening even more and I don't have money for emgs removal file. I'm kinda stuck riding the rapids and holding on.[/quote:9421/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/if6b]

It's your struggle that make the hypnosis work. If you learn the technique from http://www.TheWork.Com removing hypnotic commands one by one is quite easy. (Unfortunate TheWork doesn't work well, if you start with thoughts about yourself).

[subjerseyguy]

[quote="Alien442/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i":55/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i26e64]The compulsion to listen is so strong that if you just erase it you'll find yourself downloading and listening again. It's freaky when that happens.[/quote:55/\[url=(https?:\/\/[^\s\[]+):$uid\](.*?)\[\/url:$uid\]/i26e64]

That's exactly what's been happening. I actually had a situation where I passed an adult bookstore today. I got about a me down the road and I ended up making a decision to turn around and go back. I had nothing specific in mind but still the temptation/ compulsion was too great. I ended up looking around for a while and finally made my way back to the curtain video area.

Well long story short, I touched another man's cock. Thank god the guy wasnt forceful or dominant or more authoritative and that the video ended when it did and kinda snapped me out of the moment. Because I sure as hell was considering dropping to my knees before him and letting something happen that i couldn't undo. I mumbled I had to go and I left quick. Just been shaking my head since for the last couple hours.

Definitely lost right now in the experienc ed and realizing how close I came, and how much in that moment that I wanted it.

[ikilledthehobo]

I've actually been listening to this file on and off for a few years and I've got some questions, I guess. More recently, I've been listening more often, especially while being a little high, and I'm thinking it's working a little more than it was before. But I still feel like I'm not fully going into a trance. I'm always completely conscious and remember the entire thing. Not sure if this is how it's supposed to be, but any help is definitely appreciated. Like I said, I think I'm seeing some changes, but I want to keep that up!

[Alien4420]

You don't really lose consciousness in a trance, more like go into an altered mode of thinking in which the rational, analytical, skeptical part of your mind is quiescent. And there are different degrees of trance, from light to deep trance, all of which can be effective. Deep trance is required only for some things.

Amnesia is something that's generally induced by the hypnotist if he wants. He'll tell you to forget and you will. It's bizarre, the thoughts disappear just like they do when you wake up remembering a dream and it fades from memory. Anyway, there's no suggestion of amnesia in Forced Gay and some of the suggestions seem to have been designed with the assumption that you'll remember what's been done, forex, if you remember that you won't be able to get hard for your girlfriend and that it will humiliate you, that's going to make you less likely to want to try sex with your girlfriend!

However, I've found that light trance isn't good for the suggestions that I'm very resistant to. In light trance, I find I reject them -- I stop listening and my mind wanders, or I come out of trance, or I get anxious and they don't sink in. In deep trance, they just pour right into my subconscious and my conscious mind and emotions stay disengaged. I've been listening to EMG's Train Susceptible every day for about a month now and I'm finding that it's really improved my ability to stay in a deep trance and accept the suggestions I'm resistant to, like not being attracted to or get hard for women. It also creates amnesia even with files that don't have a specific suggestion for it and this really helps with suggestions you're resistant to because if you don't remember the suggestion, your conscious mind won't know to fight it. I've even found it pretty successful in files I was already listening to (though not completely, as witness the fact that I can remember those suggestions from Curse Forced Gay).

[Ryan83]

So...I just changed my OK Cupid profile to gay (yay!)

AND...I just asked a friend of mine if she'd like to go to a male strip club with me and she said yes! We even set a date (I wanted to set a date so I know I wouldn't wuss out). A couple weeks from now, when we get paid. Also, I asked her to hold me to it. She is going to make damn sure I don't back out of this. So...here we go. I'm very excited.

Finally, totally changed my wallpaper to a half naked man. :D I will be listening to CFG a lot in the next couple weeks to cement this. Man, I really think I've made it this time. I really think I'm ok with this and I really think there's no going back now.

[Alien4420]

Hey, Ryan, great news.

I've had big changes too. I've been listening to EMG's Train Susceptible for about a month and it's deepened my trances and made me better able to overcome resistance. I've also been listening to CFG every day rather than gong through long periods where I avoided it and to some other files as well, and the net effect has been to significantly reduce my resistance. I don't think I'm all the way to where I want to be -- there's still a little voice sometimes that says "This doesn't make sense" -- but that voice is a lot smaller and the more I accept it, the better I find I feel, by far.

[Ryan83]

Done! On your recommendation I'm going to listen to Train Susceptible tonight and then the binaural version of CFG. :)

The only thing that bums me out is that I've been listening to Curse Stroke Sissy for the last week or so and out of nowhere I am suddenly developing feminine mannerisms. Which is amazing and I LOVE it. But now with this strip club thing coming up in two weeks, I really want to focus on CFG to try to make myself even more into guys in preparation. So I'm torn. But tonight I will listen to CFG and Train Susceptible, to be sure.

Also, this is the kind of thing (going to the strip club) that I would get excited about before than almost immediately, or at the very latest, the next day, cancel and get mad at myself and wonder what the fuck I was thinking and try to tell myself that I can reverse this. This time, I slept on it and could hardly WAIT today just thinking about it. I am so over the moon excited to go it's not even funny, and there's not a bit of doubt in my mind that I want to go and try this out. That's huge for me. So something's happening- whether it's the hypnosis or just pure acceptance, I don't know. Still not completely sure I won't want to reverse this still, but I'm definitely leaning toward no now.

[samhash]

Seeing Ryan's progress makes me want to try harder to get to where he is. I would love to feel that excitment. Ryan do you feel like you could have a sexual experience with a man at this point? Is cfg enough to get me where you are in the conversion process?

Thanks!