gswcz wrote
I once had professional hypnosis to deal with an issue with self-esteem. It worked well for me, but the results showed over time. My therapist said that there were three ways to respond to hypnosis; not at all, in other words it doesn't work, immediate, which is when the results tend to hit immediately, and the gradual, meaning the results creep up in the days and weeks following the hypnosis. I found the cfg file to grow on me gradually too.
Right now I am struggling to decide what to do next. My wife suggests I get a boyfriend, but I have one major fear...illness. One thing I could never do to my family is sacrifice our health for fun.
That being said, I only wank to gay porn and thinking of cocks now. Women don't get me hard anymore at all. I have gone from bi to gay. So what to do now?
There are always precautions that you can take to minimize any risks of disease. One is to practice safer sex (not "safe sex", since nothing can totally eliminate every risk). The reason nothing is foolproof is that fools are so inventive. This includes using condoms with every person when you have penetrative sex, regardless of which role you take and what they say about their health status. Make it a rule: NO CONDOM, NO SEX, NO EXCEPTIONS. (You might want to ask your hypnotist to make condom use necessary for you to have sex.) Latex condoms only! ("Natural" condoms are made of sheep intestines which can have holes small enough to let a virus through.)
There is also a pill that will prevent you from being infected with the AIDS virus. This is called PrEP. It's a prescription drug -- your doctor will prescribe it -- you start to take daily before you have sex and then continue taking. Here is info from the CDC on PrEP: http://www.cdc.gov/hiv/basics/prep.html
There are also vaccines for some other sexually transmitted viruses available (Hepatitis A, Hepatitis B, Pneumococcal Pneumonia (PCP), and HPV (Human PapillomaVirus) come to mind. Info from CDC: http://www.cdc.gov/std/prevention/default.htm Follow the links for each separate STD and read the info. Some have suggestions on vaccines and other preventive steps to take. Pay special attenton to the VACCINES and CONDOMS sections.
After taking all the reasonable precautions you can, I suggest you take your wife's advice: get a boyfriend ... or at least start looking for one. If you're in or near a big city, there are options besides bars and other unhealthy environments. (I have gay friends in AA and other twelve-step associations.) There are gay running clubs, weightlifting/bodybuilding clubs, stamp clubs, and almost any other club you can think of. Go to one of the larger gay sites and enter your community and/or zip code. You may find a large list of clubs, events, and such that you will be interested in. If you like to jog and you join a gay joggers' club ... you may not find a boyfriend but you will find some gay friends who jog. There are also gay church groups; not all of us gave up on our churches.
There are hundreds (I may be seriously underestimating the number of groups by a few factors of ten: there may be hundreds of thousands) of Gay Facebook groups (and Tumblr groups, LinkedIn groups, Pinterest groups, etc. ...). Join some. There are groups for every conceivable gay fetish (and some you (and I) have never heard of). Fetishes? http://www.FetLife.com. Other information? There are websites out there (sort-of-waves at web) dedicated to finding this information and willing to provide it to you. Try searching for "gay (interest) (your state)" or "gay (interest) (your town)".