by jeremyjason76 » May 14th, 2019, 5:20 pm
Hi. I've just started listening to these files five days ago. I am a gay bottom, happy with being gay, and, while being able to aesthetically appreciate nude women in art, have never been attracted to girls and grossed out by the thought of sexual contact with a female.
I figured I would try this to see if it would work.
The first day, I listened to CFS, HC, HT, TrainSexWomen, Straight Male, and something called, I think, Demonic Straight Transformation. After listening to them all, I decided HC would be my main focus file, with some TSW, SM, and the demonic one mixed in.
On the second day, I listened to the file twice. I had an intriguing feeling when looking at pictures of girls, compared to neutral to grossed out. Also, I was a little turned on by straight porn and came.
The third day, I listened three times. I couldn't really get off to straight porn, and switched to gay porn.
Also, I read in one of the forums about listening three times a day, looping it for about 40 minutes at a time.
Yesterday, I listened twice. The first was a loop of three listens. The second was a loop of two. I intriguingly noticed a couple of girls walking on the street. Once a guy was walking with one of them and, after noticing her, I had a stronger desire for him. Then, last night, in the store, I got really turned on by a girl in line who was dressed in tight clothes and acting "dumb" for her boyfriend, which I never understood. When I got home last night, I got off to bi porn, with two guys and a girl. I was attracted to all three, but came when finally concentrating on the girl.
So far, I would say that I'm more than intrigued by some girls, but my attraction to guys is still stronger and more "genuine", for lack of a better term.
It looks like this thread has died out mostly, but any advice or encouragement would be appreciated. Or, I would be willing to converse with a mentor in PM. I'm interested in seeing how far this can go, and if I end up straight or bi. Straight scares me somewhat because I'm openly gay and my friends consist of a few girls and some gay guys. I feel like it would be entering a new closet in a way.