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Hey yo, been a while but I started listening to this file again. Well once but it’s a lot stronger now had a gay dream very arousing. But can someone with experience tell me when it actually does work like your feelings cause I still get erect with women just not as good with men. Should also point out I watched a hypnosis video two nights in a row and it was a girl telling me I’m gay and in general.

In my experience anyway attraction to women is one of the last things to go. Don't know how long you've been listening but you'll eventually lost your ability to have sex with them. I think everyone is a little different in their response.

How do you know the file is working?? What’s your experience?

I used to be a solid hetero husband but no any more. It took a couple of years but now I have no interest in women. I'm married but my wife has no interest in sex so there's no pressure there. But now my dick stays limp most of the time. I enjoy looking at porn with cocks in them. I've eaten my cum (YUM!). I have recently started to use a dildo instead of a butt plug for sexual gratification. The biggest thrill is that I'm dreaming about sucking cock now. TWO nights in a row. I've developed some feminine mannerisms. AND I LOVE IT!!!

These fil es work. May be slowly but they work.

You know it's working because you change gradually. It doesn't happen all at once, but over a period of weeks and months. You'll notice that you're increasingly attracted to and interested in gay porn and such. Eventually, men will start to turn you on.

My memory of the process is that something would change every day. Among the last things to go were attraction to women and about the last thing I gained was attraction to male faces, and I think it was another file that did that (CFG doesn't have a suggestion about faces --- EMG should edit one in -- but it's been added to some other versions/riffs on the file).

I wish there was a file which encouraged open identification as queer, acting gay and getting a super twinky gay wardrobe

Started listening last week - straight for about 5-6 days - once per day. It is definitely a fun file. We'll see how it works on me. I tend to have a harder time going under, so, we'll see ...

What makes you try the file Stryper? Watch out - this thread is full of former straight dudes who are total cockhounds now.

Good question. I ran across this site seeing some self-improvement files - particularly with fitness/muscle building. I am looking to get my mojo back in the gym. I have tried other curse files and they have not worked - I'm a very hard case. So ... I tried this one "just because" - I don't think it'll work, but if it does, then what the heck, nothing to lose. Didn't listen to it yesterday and not "compelled" to listen to it tonight, but I'm gonna anyway. Who knows - maybe I'll turn into one of those cockhounds (LOL)!

Just let yourself go and give in to the file stryper. Soon you will discover gay sex is a million times better then straight sex after all only a man truly knows how to please another man. Nothing beats a nice big hard dick fucking your ass and mouth filling you up with a big load of yummy cum.

dickdodger69 wrote:Just let yourself go and give in to the file stryper. Soon you will discover gay sex is a million times better then straight sex after all only a man truly knows how to please another man. Nothing beats a nice big hard dick fucking your ass and mouth filling you up with a big load of yummy cum.

That's what I'm reading (on this thread, of course ... lol). I'll give it a shot ... who knows ... maybe I'm trying too hard ... I wouldn't mind being another success story.

Keep it up for a couple months and I'm sure you will be. I'm naturally gay, but some of the locking files here helped me seriously jock up after college, so I've got faith that it works if you give enough time.

wishiwas2011 wrote:Keep it up for a couple months and I'm sure you will be. I'm naturally gay, but some of the locking files here helped me seriously jock up after college, so I've got faith that it works if you give enough time.

A couple of months? I can do that. Thinking about adding gay bodybuilder as well. Which ones did you listen to and which ones were most effective for you?

Yeah, the other dudes in the thread said that it took like a couple months max to kick in. No stress though bro. It's just something fun to listen to and see where you go.

About the files I listened to... I should mention that I've got a pretty common kink. Dumb jocks are like my weakness, and I always wanna be more of one.

I listened to...

AbsoluteJock: I listened to this one a lot early on. I think it helped get me past of fear of the gym or of letting people know I was into sports and shit.

Become the Jock: I remember that this file took me from fitness being a thing I did to being a lifestyle.

Bodybuilder Supreme: whenever I lose motivation on getting bigger I reach for this one.

Vive's "Dumbing Down" series. That did a number on my brain. Felt like I was high all the time for like a year after I stopped. Still not convinced that I've recovered all the way

Just a little bit dumber bro: I listen to this file like every night now and have no idea what it's about. Since I started listening to it I've been getting high a lot more and I also started wearing jockstraps on the regular. This file is such a mindfuck in a good way.

Hey thanks! I'll check them out. I'm not into being a dumb jock, but I do want to build my muscle again (yeah, I've been there already and just need to get back into it). As to the CFG file, I'm not in a hurry ... I'm just curious and it's a fun file ... and cursed gay bodybuilder would be great if I can get it to stick. It's hard for me. I'm trying Virtual Reality glasses too ... just to see if I can go deeper. To be honest ... I really don't know why I picked CFG ... maybe I secretly have gay aspirations???

Not really sure why I posted, but I'm glad I did ... took some courage to do so, but I am appreciative of the support!

No worries bro, we're stoked that you posted to. I'm really looking forward to hearing all about your experience with the file.

Just for shits and giggles, I threw it on yesterday myself. Like I say, I'm naturally gay, so I'm curious if it'll do anything to me.

wishiwas2011 wrote:No worries bro, we're stoked that you posted to. I'm really looking forward to hearing all about your experience with the file.

Just for shits and giggles, I threw it on yesterday myself. Like I say, I'm naturally gay, so I'm curious if it'll do anything to me.

The file is fun and arousing, so you probably had a good listen ... I'm not really sure why I am listening - not sure if I am liking the idea of being turned, if it is a challenge or what at this point. I'm thinking there's something there that I'll figure out. That said, I did listen last night and got freaked out for the first time after listening and I'm getting some interesting sensations/feelings in my gut from time to time that have not been there before - those feelings might just be stress. Took time off from work for awhile and I got back Weds/Thurs - and the stress is starting to come back. Still not changed yet, tho ... not sure how much time I'll have to listen to it today/tomorrow to see if I still get freaked out.

The file is fun and arousing, so you probably had a good listen ... I'm not really sure why I am listening - not sure if I am liking the idea of being turned, if it is a challenge or what at this point. I'm thinking there's something there that I'll figure out.

I actually listened to the file two or three times in the last couple of days. It's funny - as an out gay dude, the file feels so much like it's all about women. But it's still nice to listen to.

That said, I did listen last night and got freaked out for the first time after listening and I'm getting some interesting sensations/feelings in my gut from time to time that have not been there before - those feelings might just be stress. Took time off from work for awhile and I got back Weds/Thurs - and the stress is starting to come back. Still not changed yet, tho ... not sure how much time I'll have to listen to it today/tomorrow to see if I still get freaked out.

Just go slow bro. There's no reason to hurry or try and force it. Just keep listening to your file and see what you're open to.

I'm sorry to hear you got a job that's causing you that kind of worries. If it helps, maybe you can think of the file as somewhere to go away from the stress?

Good point ... maybe I am rushing it too much. It is a marathon and not a sprint, right?? (LOL). I guess I expect too much too soon. Yeah, work can be stressful. I did listen tonight ... didn't have the same impact as before and not as arousing to me this time either. I can see how this would be a stress reliever. My original goal was to listen every night, but I think I'm not being realistic with that. I'll keep plugging along and see where this takes me ...

Much appreciated for the support ... it's very helpful - kind of feeling like I'm on my own with this and it's also helpful for someone to keep me going, so thanks!!!

Much appreciated for the support ... it's very helpful - kind of feeling like I'm on my own with this and it's also helpful for someone to keep me going, so thanks!!!

You're totally not on your own bro. I mean, fuck, I'm listening to this thing daily and I'm already gay! There's something seriousy addictive about this file!

wishiwas2011 wrote:

Much appreciated for the support ... it's very helpful - kind of feeling like I'm on my own with this and it's also helpful for someone to keep me going, so thanks!!!

You're totally not on your own bro. I mean, fuck, I'm listening to this thing daily and I'm already gay! There's something seriousy addictive about this file!

Thanks man ... yes, it is addicting. Taking a break tonight from the file. Listened to it last night and didn't freak me out - aroused me like it usually does. Onward ...

Have you had a chance to listen?

Yup ... a few days ago and tonight. My schedule isn't allowing me to listen as much as I would like ...

Sweet. Too bad your schedule is so rough, but I'm glad you're following through.

As a straight dude... what does it feel like to listen to the file?

wishiwas2011 wrote:Sweet. Too bad your schedule is so rough, but I'm glad you're following through.

As a straight dude... what does it feel like to listen to the file?

Hmm ... how do I describe it ... fun, weird, erotic. The induction is good if I just let myself go. VR glasses help with this. Even though I'm straight, I get turned on by the suggestions in the file. In a way, it's kind of scary, but exciting at the same time. It's also a bit on the weird side. When I'm done listening, sometimes I'm in a little awe, sometimes nothing and a couple of times I've been freaked out. I like to pair it with Gay Bodybuilder - when I have time. Being obsessed with bodybuilding is something I'm wanting to do. I used to be pretty big and want to get back there.

The file, tho ... is definitely arousing and exciting to me for some reason. I'm not gay yet, tho ...

stryper wrote:

wishiwas2011 wrote:Sweet. Too bad your schedule is so rough, but I'm glad you're following through.

As a straight dude... what does it feel like to listen to the file?

Hmm ... how do I describe it ... fun, weird, erotic. The induction is good if I just let myself go. VR glasses help with this. Even though I'm straight, I get turned on by the suggestions in the file. In a way, it's kind of scary, but exciting at the same time. It's also a bit on the weird side. When I'm done listening, sometimes I'm in a little awe, sometimes nothing and a couple of times I've been freaked out. I like to pair it with Gay Bodybuilder - when I have time. Being obsessed with bodybuilding is something I'm wanting to do. I used to be pretty big and want to get back there.

The file, tho ... is definitely arousing and exciting to me for some reason. I'm not gay yet, tho ...

Once you start finding yourself attracted to men's face then you're a goner. At that point just accept your gay and enjoy your new fabulous life. I hope to hear that you reach that point and join the club of former straight guys.

I always love to visit this forum when I am on site. One of these days I will get my dream of being turned by Forced Gay. Any suggestions please contact.
Thank you dave

dickdodger69 wrote:

stryper wrote:

wishiwas2011 wrote:Sweet. Too bad your schedule is so rough, but I'm glad you're following through.

As a straight dude... what does it feel like to listen to the file?

Hmm ... how do I describe it ... fun, weird, erotic. The induction is good if I just let myself go. VR glasses help with this. Even though I'm straight, I get turned on by the suggestions in the file. In a way, it's kind of scary, but exciting at the same time. It's also a bit on the weird side. When I'm done listening, sometimes I'm in a little awe, sometimes nothing and a couple of times I've been freaked out. I like to pair it with Gay Bodybuilder - when I have time. Being obsessed with bodybuilding is something I'm wanting to do. I used to be pretty big and want to get back there.

The file, tho ... is definitely arousing and exciting to me for some reason. I'm not gay yet, tho ...

Once you start finding yourself attracted to men's face then you're a goner. At that point just accept your gay and enjoy your new fabulous life. I hope to hear that you reach that point and join the club of former straight guys.

Was that the turning point for you? Hmm ... I'll have to see if I can be aware of what my trigger is ... maybe the same ... time will tell, I guess.

sb2yu wrote:I always love to visit this forum when I am on site. One of these days I will get my dream of being turned by Forced Gay. Any suggestions please contact.
Thank you dave

What have you tried? I'm still listening to the file and ... you can see that I'm not there yet either ... haha. Maybe we're just tougher than most to have the change??

stryper wrote:Was that the turning point for you? Hmm ... I'll have to see if I can be aware of what my trigger is ... maybe the same ... time will tell, I guess.

Oh yes, that was my turning point. I could still recognize a woman as pretty, but no sexual attraction. It was how when I was straight I could tell a handsome man from an ugly man I just wasn't attracted to men at that time.

dickdodger69 wrote: Oh yes, that was my turning point. I could still recognize a woman as pretty, but no sexual attraction. It was how when I was straight I could tell a handsome man from an ugly man I just wasn't attracted to men at that time.

Can you remember your progression? What you noticed first, how you felt at different times, resistance to the process, etc???

stryper wrote:

dickdodger69 wrote: Oh yes, that was my turning point. I could still recognize a woman as pretty, but no sexual attraction. It was how when I was straight I could tell a handsome man from an ugly man I just wasn't attracted to men at that time.

Can you remember your progression? What you noticed first, how you felt at different times, resistance to the process, etc???

It was hard at first took me a bit to finally get into a pattern of listening to the file regularly. Once I did it was while watching porn that I started to notice I was paying more attention to the men especially how hung they were it was a little scary at first because when I wasn't watching porn I would feel ashamed. Soon though the thoughts of shame begun to lessen and I was able to try watching gay porn for the first time which is when the changes kicked into high gear. In fact it's funny now, but I remember the first time I thought to myself how handsome a man's face was and I would like to kiss that man I freaked out, but in a good way. Now this part might just be me, but when I was straight I had a thing for a woman's chest once the change really started kicking in and especially now that I've turned nothing is hotter to me then a hot muscular man with a rock hard chest. I just want to run my hands all over that chest and kiss all over it. I think that desire just carried over from my straight days.

dickdodger69 wrote:It was hard at first took me a bit to finally get into a pattern of listening to the file regularly. Once I did it was while watching porn that I started to notice I was paying more attention to the men especially how hung they were it was a little scary at first because when I wasn't watching porn I would feel ashamed. Soon though the thoughts of shame begun to lessen and I was able to try watching gay porn for the first time which is when the changes kicked into high gear. In fact it's funny now, but I remember the first time I thought to myself how handsome a man's face was and I would like to kiss that man I freaked out, but in a good way. Now this part might just be me, but when I was straight I had a thing for a woman's chest once the change really started kicking in and especially now that I've turned nothing is hotter to me then a hot muscular man with a rock hard chest. I just want to run my hands all over that chest and kiss all over it. I think that desire just carried over from my straight days.

I've watched gay porn before and it does not disgust me. I find it slightly erotic and turns me on a little. While it does turn me on, I don't feel gay ... well, not yet anyway. I can watch straight porn and it'll turn me too on so I'm waiting for the time when I can start seeing myself with a guy. I ran across this forum due to my want to be more obsessed with bodybuilding and was always curious about this file ... I tried to listened some time ago and it freaked me out, so I didn't make it through, so I didn't continue. Then I tried gay gym out of curiosity and that one intrigued me and I got some effect from it, so I took the plunge with CFG. I can listen to it regularly now - I don't have a "need" to listen to it, yet, so I don't feel trapped, but I am damn curious to see if it will work on on me and see that maybe the change would do me some good. I've got nothing to lose - if it works - cool, If it doesn't- oh well. I'm a tough sell. I'm trying to let go more and just go with it. I'm a tough sell so I'll stick with it and see if it can really affect me. Why not? I'm an impatient guy so sticking with this thing this far must be telling me something. I'll just have to be patient and see where this takes me.

Why did you decide to do this (if you don't mind telling)? I know you are happy with the lifestyle, so I'm just curious. Your perspective does help ... so your perspective on your experience is very helpful!

stryper wrote:

dickdodger69 wrote:It was hard at first took me a bit to finally get into a pattern of listening to the file regularly. Once I did it was while watching porn that I started to notice I was paying more attention to the men especially how hung they were it was a little scary at first because when I wasn't watching porn I would feel ashamed. Soon though the thoughts of shame begun to lessen and I was able to try watching gay porn for the first time which is when the changes kicked into high gear. In fact it's funny now, but I remember the first time I thought to myself how handsome a man's face was and I would like to kiss that man I freaked out, but in a good way. Now this part might just be me, but when I was straight I had a thing for a woman's chest once the change really started kicking in and especially now that I've turned nothing is hotter to me then a hot muscular man with a rock hard chest. I just want to run my hands all over that chest and kiss all over it. I think that desire just carried over from my straight days.

I've watched gay porn before and it does not disgust me. I find it slightly erotic and turns me on a little. While it does turn me on, I don't feel gay ... well, not yet anyway. I can watch straight porn and it'll turn me too on so I'm waiting for the time when I can start seeing myself with a guy. I ran across this forum due to my want to be more obsessed with bodybuilding and was always curious about this file ... I tried to listened some time ago and it freaked me out, so I didn't make it through, so I didn't continue. Then I tried gay gym out of curiosity and that one intrigued me and I got some effect from it, so I took the plunge with CFG. I can listen to it regularly now - I don't have a "need" to listen to it, yet, so I don't feel trapped, but I am damn curious to see if it will work on on me and see that maybe the change would do me some good. I've got nothing to lose - if it works - cool, If it doesn't- oh well. I'm a tough sell. I'm trying to let go more and just go with it. I'm a tough sell so I'll stick with it and see if it can really affect me. Why not? I'm an impatient guy so sticking with this thing this far must be telling me something. I'll just have to be patient and see where this takes me.

Why did you decide to do this (if you don't mind telling)? I know you are happy with the lifestyle, so I'm just curious. Your perspective does help ... so your perspective on your experience is very helpful!

Only good can come from sticking with it. I actually started using the file when I found the site because I thought it was complete bullshit and laughed at the thought a straight man could be turned gay. I can now saying never been so happy to have been wrong in my life . I'm pretty sure you're not alone in being freaked out when you first listened I know I was feeling a little freaked out and disgusted with my first listen. Looking back now it's hard to believe I had such negative feelings for such a fabulous and wonderful file.

dickdodger69 wrote:[quote=Only good can come from sticking with it. I actually started using the file when I found the site because I thought it was complete bullshit and laughed at the thought a straight man could be turned gay. I can now saying never been so happy to have been wrong in my life . I'm pretty sure you're not alone in being freaked out when you first listened I know I was feeling a little freaked out and disgusted with my first listen. Looking back now it's hard to believe I had such negative feelings for such a fabulous and wonderful file.

Well ... I'm another doubter but it looks like I found a mentor through this process ... from time to time anyway if you are up for it ... haha ...

This file made me gay

I started using it late 2015. It wasn’t every day or week. But it was maybe once a week for the first month then it was inconsistent. Sometimes it was a few times in a week or two week span. Once I listened to the file twice in one night. Now it’s a about one listen every month even tho i resist it. Every time I listen it gets stronger. Even tho it’s not consistent. I actually enjoy gay porn, I get off to it And enjoy the pleasure more. I don’t get that spike in tits and pussy anymore. Yes I still get aroused by women bodies but it’s not as pleasurable and don’t get that spike. I get that spike from cock. I even look at guys butts and crouch in public. My anus even gets aroused and the thought of gay sex arouses me. Basically I would still have sex with women but I would find gay sex a lot more enjoyable. And I can get off to women but guys Cock i get off so much faster and much stronger. I also check women out as well but nothing has changed there. Feedback please.

stryper wrote:

dickdodger69 wrote:[quote=Only good can come from sticking with it. I actually started using the file when I found the site because I thought it was complete bullshit and laughed at the thought a straight man could be turned gay. I can now saying never been so happy to have been wrong in my life . I'm pretty sure you're not alone in being freaked out when you first listened I know I was feeling a little freaked out and disgusted with my first listen. Looking back now it's hard to believe I had such negative feelings for such a fabulous and wonderful file.

Well ... I'm another doubter but it looks like I found a mentor through this process ... from time to time anyway if you are up for it ... haha ...

I'm always willing to help my fellow man. I really hope to see another turnee soon.

fireinside23 wrote:This file made me gay

I started using it late 2015. It wasn’t every day or week. But it was maybe once a week for the first month then it was inconsistent. Sometimes it was a few times in a week or two week span. Once I listened to the file twice in one night. Now it’s a about one listen every month even tho i resist it. Every time I listen it gets stronger. Even tho it’s not consistent. I actually enjoy gay porn, I get off to it And enjoy the pleasure more. I don’t get that spike in tits and pussy anymore. Yes I still get aroused by women bodies but it’s not as pleasurable and don’t get that spike. I get that spike from cock. I even look at guys butts and crouch in public. My anus even gets aroused and the thought of gay sex arouses me. Basically I would still have sex with women but I would find gay sex a lot more enjoyable. And I can get off to women but guys Cock i get off so much faster and much stronger. I also check women out as well but nothing has changed there. Feedback please.

It sounds to me and I'm as far from an expert as you can get that your subconscious mind,is conflicted on the commands of the file leaving you in a bi state.

fireinside23 wrote:This file made me gay

I started using it late 2015. It wasn’t every day or week. But it was maybe once a week for the first month then it was inconsistent. Sometimes it was a few times in a week or two week span. Once I listened to the file twice in one night. Now it’s a about one listen every month even tho i resist it. Every time I listen it gets stronger. Even tho it’s not consistent. I actually enjoy gay porn, I get off to it And enjoy the pleasure more. I don’t get that spike in tits and pussy anymore. Yes I still get aroused by women bodies but it’s not as pleasurable and don’t get that spike. I get that spike from cock. I even look at guys butts and crouch in public. My anus even gets aroused and the thought of gay sex arouses me. Basically I would still have sex with women but I would find gay sex a lot more enjoyable. And I can get off to women but guys Cock i get off so much faster and much stronger. I also check women out as well but nothing has changed there. Feedback please.

So ... I guess I should ask what lifestyle you are leading?? Or maybe that's too personal. Maybe try Virtual Reality glasses? I use VR glasses and an android app for meditation that seems to help me go deeper. Like you, I'm looking for that magic bullet. Or maybe I'll end up in the same boat. What dickdodger69 told me was to "go with it" and I'm trying to do just that. Perhaps living the gay life and listening more will do the trick? I dunno as I'm a beginner with this one. At least you have turned some ... I've yet to do that.

I never tried hypnosis in VR, though I've got VR glasses. Are they comfortable enough to enter trance?

wishiwas2011 wrote:I never tried hypnosis in VR, though I've got VR glasses. Are they comfortable enough to enter trance?

Yup ... I had the Sharper Image ones and they were not comfortable. I bought a new off brand set and they work fine. Combine that with Mindroid and you have a great experience.

I have started to feel the change. I am having a break trough moment.. I am actually finding men attractive. I did not think this would be possible, but it is starting to happen for me. I know it is from listening to CFG files. I am sor excited and nervous for what might come next. What an amazing transformation it has been. I went from not being aroused at all to where I am now. Very cool!

ejn0t1n wrote:I have started to feel the change. I am having a break trough moment.. I am actually finding men attractive. I did not think this would be possible, but it is starting to happen for me. I know it is from listening to CFG files. I am sor excited and nervous for what might come next. What an amazing transformation it has been. I went from not being aroused at all to where I am now. Very cool!

How long did it take? I've been too busy to listen lately and I have not paid attention to my desires due to my schedule and being so busy ... I "think" I find myself looking at guys more than I did before, but, I have not paid attention, so I'll have to be more astute in the future.

How long before you got to this point?

ejn0t1n wrote:How long before you got to this point?

I believe it took me a total of 4 years to get to this point, but I have had a lot go on since I started exploring.

I have been through several starting and stopping periods. I would get to a point where I would question what is wrong with me and stop out of shame. I always would find my way back to searching for the forced gay file not matter how many times I have tried to put it behind me.

Now I have been on feminizing hormones and have developed female breasts. I think about cock all the time and it never seems to make me feel guilty any more. I think I really wanted to start getting aroused by men and now it is becoming a reality. I don't think it will be much longer before I am kissing a guy and hopefully a whole lot more.

Still listening when I can. The file gets more intense for me each time I listen (kind of fun). Still not gay ... I have been checking guys out just a little more than usual, tho ... so ... it'll be a slow process. I also listen to Gay Gym which is also getting more intense. We shall see.

So, I'm new to these forums but wanted to share my experience with these sorts of files so far. I'm 44, been married for 15 years. I've periodically had fantasies about guys throughout the years going all the way back to when I was just 12 years old. However, I've never done anything with a guy. When I was younger, I used to dismiss these occasional thoughts as either "oh that's gross" or "doing gay things is something that happens to other guys, not me". I would dismiss these thoughts as a phase. But, in recent years, I've come to realize that anything that sticks around this long has to be at least a part of who I am.

To me, having these periodic thoughts of guys was annoying. I wanted to be 100% straight, no confusion. Because I"m naturally interested in exploring the mind and have thought about hypnosis before I wanted to see if something like this would work on me. I found some videos on YouTube then wanted something more explicit so I stumbled onto this site. I quickly bumped into the CFG files and Shattered Heterosexuality files. This was a couple of months ago. CFG was interesting at first but I wanted to sample some different things. I liked the idea of Shattered Heterosexuality because I figured - well, if I can't be 100% straight, then what would it be like to be 100% gay?

Let me tell you that Shattered Heterosexuality is EXTREMELY powerful. It was not long before I began getting chills when I would look at men (in a good way). I very quickly began dreaming of hot men. When I would get horny, I would immediately begin fantasizing about men or looking at gay porn because the feelings were so much more intense. Men's bodies just became much more sexually exciting to me. To the point that I was jerking off several times a day only thinking about men. The neat thing about this is that while this was going on, I was 100% comfortable with these feelings towards men and it began to feel natural. Although, like many others, I'm still primarily attracted to men's bodies...rarely their faces. I began to have difficulties getting erect for sex with my wife and in fact struck out a couple of times (we have a pretty inactive and boring sex life anyway).

I began to get very scared about what was happening to me. I did not want to become impotent with my wife and all the issues that would cause. But, then I figured we weren't having sex that often anyway and damn, if I didn't love stroking to men now.

Fast forward to now: I recently tried to take a break from the videos because I did not want to go too far down this path and figured if I slowed things down I could maintain a semblance of control. The most I can make it at this point is about 4-5 days without listening to the files. And when I go back, damn it is so good. I'm comfortable with these thoughts when I"m horny but I still get very embarrassed to myself when I"m around straight friends of mine and I feel ashamed at the thoughts I've been having. I don't know where this is taking me. I do know I yearn to explore what it would be like in a relationship with a man. Talking to him every day. Coming home to him and waking up next to him. I can't destroy my current life and cause pain to my family. But, I do feel confident that if (god forbid!!) something were to happen to my wife, I would at least attempt to pursue a relationship with a man. I would love to find a man that would be patient with me as I figure this all out and that I could talk through these feelings with.

Again, I don't know where I"m going with this. Maybe this is just a fantasy and it's erotic to me to be under the control of someone else. Maybe I can live out the rest of my life happily without ever acting on these thoughts. But, at this point - I do know the thoughts are real, I do know that I'm comfortable with them when I"m not around my straight guy friends, and I do know that I sure love googling men in speedos. Other than that, we will see where this goes because I have a really hard time imagining being able to step away from these files for any length of time.

smooth9 wrote:Again, I don't know where I"m going with this. Maybe this is just a fantasy and it's erotic to me to be under the control of someone else. Maybe I can live out the rest of my life happily without ever acting on these thoughts. But, at this point - I do know the thoughts are real, I do know that I'm comfortable with them when I"m not around my straight guy friends, and I do know that I sure love googling men in speedos. Other than that, we will see where this goes because I have a really hard time imagining being able to step away from these files for any length of time.

I'm in the same boat ... don't know where I am going with this and don't know where it's taking me. I've been listening to Gay Gym a lot and loving it more and more each time I listen. I'll have to see what it does to me next time I'm well enough to go to the gym ... that said ... I have to admit I'm finding guys more attractive now ... and I'm glad I'm not alone in this ...

Right now, things go very much back and forth. I have times where I can't imagine getting excited about any women. Then I have times like right now, where I'm watching TV and I see a couple of super hot women go across the screen and I'm turned on. So, in some respects I'm still in the same boat I was before. Then again, I haven't gone full bore into CFG. I feel like if I was religiously listening to it at least once or twice a day, I'd be a lot further along on the continuum towards gay.

smooth9 wrote:Right now, things go very much back and forth. I have times where I can't imagine getting excited about any women. Then I have times like right now, where I'm watching TV and I see a couple of super hot women go across the screen and I'm turned on. So, in some respects I'm still in the same boat I was before. Then again, I haven't gone full bore into CFG. I feel like if I was religiously listening to it at least once or twice a day, I'd be a lot further along on the continuum towards gay.

I dunno ... I can't listen every day. I'm going to be a stubborn one on this or maybe it's not going to work on me much. I do seem to be a little more attracted to guys, but not so much that I'd call myself gay. I listen about once per week - that's about what I can do. I guess I'll keep trudging along ...

Something interesting has been happening to me lately and I'm curious if it has to others because I havent seen this specific response.

I'm in a spot now where I see pretty women and i think damn she's hot. But then when it comes time to get aroused, nothing gets my pulse going like thinking about being with men. I only jerk off now to either gay porn or by googling hot gay men and looking at the pictures. Men can get me instantly hard. So - the attraction to women is there but it's just not worth thinking about being with them sexually. Anyone else have this happen?

smooth9 wrote:Something interesting has been happening to me lately and I'm curious if it has to others because I havent seen this specific response.

I'm in a spot now where I see pretty women and i think damn she's hot. But then when it comes time to get aroused, nothing gets my pulse going like thinking about being with men. I only jerk off now to either gay porn or by googling hot gay men and looking at the pictures. Men can get me instantly hard. So - the attraction to women is there but it's just not worth thinking about being with them sexually. Anyone else have this happen?

Sounds like it is working on you. I'm not there yet. I do find guys more attractive than before I started listening and I think I can see myself dating a guy, but it is not a strong feeling. I'm a bit envious of you. Sounds like you've turned a corner and are getting pretty close!!! I kinda wish I were as far along as you. I see guy relationships and I am envious that they can do that. Not me, not yet ... oh well ... keep pushing onward I guess.