webblast wrote:Have you done anything past the inductions yet? I find your "thinker" comment fascinating. Do you actively fight the trance, or is it more of a distraction? Do you actually sleep through the end of the file? Do they work better or worse if you are asleep at the end? And of course, what type of files are you looking to get to?
Styles I don't like: "You're getting sleepy. Your body is relaxing. Take a deep breath. Relax". It's strange- I consider myself a sub but when given a direct order like this, I will ask "why should i?". If someone tells me to go "deep"....what is deep? How am i supposed to consciously know what deep is when i'm trying to lose my conscious mind?
I'm getting a masters in medical science right now and i'm very analytical. With Blink's files, i can just kinda listen while he tells a story. With Lutz, I can't even figure out why his file works haha. I do tend to fight trance- maybe not fight it but i can't stop "thinking" long enough to just drift. It just occurred to me that maybe the reason why it works is that in the beginning, he mentions that the stories are "boring". Maybe thats why its ok for me to daydream while listening? See...i'm analyzing again. In terms of sleeping, I really don't know if it makes a difference whether i'm sleeping or now. I haven't really used enough files and gotten enough tangible results to tell. The good girl file is working I think. I love being called a good girl and I get kinda sick to my stomach if i' told i'm a bad girl. But i've listened to this file both ways.
Ok, i ramble. Sorry. What kinds of files am I looking for...what do you have in mind? haha. I really want to be able to cum on command. That level of control is quite a turn on. I want to be consciously aware that I am not in control. I don't want anything that is going to dramatically change my life- my goal is to be a doctor and nothing can change that, whether it be personality change, physical change, mental change, etc. Thats about it. Ideas? Thoughts?