by busboy » March 8th, 2008, 12:34 pm
while files you make yourself have the benefit of being more "trustworthy" in terms of feeling comfortable and accepting toward the speaker, your mind may distrust the loss of control that comes with trancing itself, regardless of the speaker. I've had a devil of a time going from light trance to deep trance . . . every time (until very recently) I started to slip over that edge, my mind would reflexively give my body a shot of adrenaline, despite my wanting to go into deep trance, despite the speaker being me.
If you're "new" to hypnosis and looking at delving into it, let me suggest (with absolutely no disrespect intended to the other excellent tists and their files) Cardigan/Carsten's Deep Trance Induction. It is almost devoid of any references to "obeying" the tist, and as such I found it a very, very non-threatening Induction. Should you use it (or any of the other induction files here or on hypno-files. com, really) a few times and find that you seem receptive to hypnosis, then worry about the next step -- making your own custom files. You'll find the people in the community here are more than helpful and supportive with tips and assistance.
A second suggestion would be to go slow. I (and I assume everybody here) completely understand the desire to jump straight to the maximum triggers and effects, but the levels of trance required for those effects are almost impossible after a few brief trances . . . especially if you're trying to direct your mind to literally re-structure your body. That may well be possible (then again, it may well not -- removing bone is a hell of alot different than burning fat), but what you're attempting to do resides at the absolute pinnacle of hypnotic effects. Practice light trancing, then deep trancing. Then work your way up the ladder of effects -- rigidity, anesthesia, all the way up to positive and negative hallucinations. Then, if you can get all the way there (some people just can't), you might be in a position to undertake something like what you're describing. Another benefit of the slow system is by the time you get to that point, you'll be in a much stronger position to evaluate and/or create files.
p.s. welcome to doing freaky shit with your mind! While the legwork and training are a drag, the payoff truly rocks.