Never going back again!
Posted: June 12th, 2020, 4:32 pmi am really glad that i found this site when i was recently looking for other [b]diaper[/b] and [b]ABDL hypno[/b] files after i had already found the best ones that are available on YouTube. A lot of what i have come across on here has been really useful, so many thanks to the contributors!
i have been functionally [b]incontinent[/b] for over 25 years and never did anything about it, which seriously impacted my hygiene and my whole life. When i found out last year that i am [b]autistic[/b] and that i have [b]ADHD[/b] my whole life suddenly made sense to me, and i was able to make some important changes - most of all, explore all those [b]needs[/b] that i have which were suppressed for so long due to social pressure, and to learn to place my [b]needs[/b] above any restrictive and harmful social norms.
Six months ago i decided to wear [b]nappies every night[/b], and it improved both my sleep and my life so much. Two months ago i decided to wear [b]nappies 24/7[/b], but i still allowed myself to spend several hours a day in pull ups before i ran out, and to use the [b]potty[/b] for [b]poo poos[/b]. But for the past couple of weeks i have been listening to [b]diaper hypno videos on loop[/b] all the time while i am awake - sometimes i just [b]loop parts of them[/b], or i [b]reduce the tempo[/b] or add some [b]meditation music[/b] in the background. Two days ago i discovered this site, and some of the files have worked so well for me that i can't imagine myself ever using a grown up toilet again. i have also realised that i only feel comfortable and secure in [b]very bulky[/b] and [b]visible nappies[/b], so i always wear an [b]ABDL nappy[/b] with [b]extra large booster[/b] that is held snugly to my body by fairly [b]tight plastic pants[/b] instead of the regular fixation pants. Above this i always wear a [b]thick[/b] and [b]fluffy plastic-backed cloth nappy[/b], and on top of everything i wear [b]plastic pants[/b] with a more generous fit, or one of my [b]plastic rompers[/b].
i can genuinely say that i [b]never again[/b] want to pretend to be anything other than a [b]thickly diapered sissy baby boy[/b]. Every month i spend [b]nearly all my money[/b] on [b]nappies[/b], [b]plastic pants[/b], [b]plastic-backed cloth nappies[/b] and [b]plastic rompers[/b], and on [b]everything[/b] that i need for [b]hygiene[/b] and [b]disposal[/b], so that i can build up a [b]large supply[/b] of [b]everything[/b] that i will need on a [b]daily basis[/b]. i have started making a [b]high chair[/b] and a [b]baby cot[/b] (and I already replaced my grown-up king size bed with a [b]single[/b] one some time ago), and i am looking forward to sewing [b]my own clothes[/b], while i have been throwing away everything that is not[b] babyish[/b] and [b]sissyish[/b] enough. There is nothing more exciting for me than knowing that i will become more and more [b]sissyfied[/b], and that i will be spending the rest of my life as the [b]sissy that i am[/b], with [b]no shame[/b] or [b]inhibitions[/b].
Adult responsibilities have always caused me a huge amount of stress and anxiety, including supposedly 'simple' tasks such as shopping or dealing with paperwork. Right now i am shielding and i get my shopping delivered once a week, so there is no need for me to go outside, except when i feel like going for a walk late at night, when it feels safe. But i want to make sure that even when the lockdown is over, i have everything in place so i [b]won't need to deal with adult stuff[/b] again, and i can carry on building the [b]perfect sissy baby life[/b] for myself.
The other thing that i want to add is that i am [b]M2F[/b] trans, but i have never bothered much about gender norms. So i have chosen a male name for myself, as i love the idea of being in a relationship with a [b]caring Mommy[/b] who addresses me in this way instead of using a 'real' girl's name, as this adds to the [b]humiliation[/b] of being a [b]diapered sissy[/b]. If i find the right person, i would also like to [b]serve Her[/b] as a [b]disciplined[/b] and [b]obedient sissy maid[/b] while remaining in my[b] thick nappies[/b], and switch between these [b]two mind states[/b].
Any input is obviously appreciated - but please no 'advice' trying to talk me out of what i have already determined is [b]best[/b] for me, and what makes me feel [b]happy[/b] and [b]relaxed[/b].
[img]https://i.imgur.com/Xv6WDXp.jpg[/img]
i have been functionally [b]incontinent[/b] for over 25 years and never did anything about it, which seriously impacted my hygiene and my whole life. When i found out last year that i am [b]autistic[/b] and that i have [b]ADHD[/b] my whole life suddenly made sense to me, and i was able to make some important changes - most of all, explore all those [b]needs[/b] that i have which were suppressed for so long due to social pressure, and to learn to place my [b]needs[/b] above any restrictive and harmful social norms.
Six months ago i decided to wear [b]nappies every night[/b], and it improved both my sleep and my life so much. Two months ago i decided to wear [b]nappies 24/7[/b], but i still allowed myself to spend several hours a day in pull ups before i ran out, and to use the [b]potty[/b] for [b]poo poos[/b]. But for the past couple of weeks i have been listening to [b]diaper hypno videos on loop[/b] all the time while i am awake - sometimes i just [b]loop parts of them[/b], or i [b]reduce the tempo[/b] or add some [b]meditation music[/b] in the background. Two days ago i discovered this site, and some of the files have worked so well for me that i can't imagine myself ever using a grown up toilet again. i have also realised that i only feel comfortable and secure in [b]very bulky[/b] and [b]visible nappies[/b], so i always wear an [b]ABDL nappy[/b] with [b]extra large booster[/b] that is held snugly to my body by fairly [b]tight plastic pants[/b] instead of the regular fixation pants. Above this i always wear a [b]thick[/b] and [b]fluffy plastic-backed cloth nappy[/b], and on top of everything i wear [b]plastic pants[/b] with a more generous fit, or one of my [b]plastic rompers[/b].
i can genuinely say that i [b]never again[/b] want to pretend to be anything other than a [b]thickly diapered sissy baby boy[/b]. Every month i spend [b]nearly all my money[/b] on [b]nappies[/b], [b]plastic pants[/b], [b]plastic-backed cloth nappies[/b] and [b]plastic rompers[/b], and on [b]everything[/b] that i need for [b]hygiene[/b] and [b]disposal[/b], so that i can build up a [b]large supply[/b] of [b]everything[/b] that i will need on a [b]daily basis[/b]. i have started making a [b]high chair[/b] and a [b]baby cot[/b] (and I already replaced my grown-up king size bed with a [b]single[/b] one some time ago), and i am looking forward to sewing [b]my own clothes[/b], while i have been throwing away everything that is not[b] babyish[/b] and [b]sissyish[/b] enough. There is nothing more exciting for me than knowing that i will become more and more [b]sissyfied[/b], and that i will be spending the rest of my life as the [b]sissy that i am[/b], with [b]no shame[/b] or [b]inhibitions[/b].
Adult responsibilities have always caused me a huge amount of stress and anxiety, including supposedly 'simple' tasks such as shopping or dealing with paperwork. Right now i am shielding and i get my shopping delivered once a week, so there is no need for me to go outside, except when i feel like going for a walk late at night, when it feels safe. But i want to make sure that even when the lockdown is over, i have everything in place so i [b]won't need to deal with adult stuff[/b] again, and i can carry on building the [b]perfect sissy baby life[/b] for myself.
The other thing that i want to add is that i am [b]M2F[/b] trans, but i have never bothered much about gender norms. So i have chosen a male name for myself, as i love the idea of being in a relationship with a [b]caring Mommy[/b] who addresses me in this way instead of using a 'real' girl's name, as this adds to the [b]humiliation[/b] of being a [b]diapered sissy[/b]. If i find the right person, i would also like to [b]serve Her[/b] as a [b]disciplined[/b] and [b]obedient sissy maid[/b] while remaining in my[b] thick nappies[/b], and switch between these [b]two mind states[/b].
Any input is obviously appreciated - but please no 'advice' trying to talk me out of what i have already determined is [b]best[/b] for me, and what makes me feel [b]happy[/b] and [b]relaxed[/b].
[img]https://i.imgur.com/Xv6WDXp.jpg[/img]