amyrose wrote
I am 33 Years old Male
My Goal is to make me a 10 year old Little girl
When I was 10 I came out to a Doctor I wanted to be a girl
You state that you are a 33 year old male and have known since you were ten years old that you were a girl. You are obviously a trans woman. You need to see your doctor (general practitioner/PCP), tell him about this, and get a recommendation for an endocrinologist who specializes in transsexual care so that you can start taking feminizing hormones. It's called
Hormone Replacement Therapy.
I am quite willing to help you and advise you in any and every way possible. This forum is obviously not the place to do this. I've been thorough most of what you want to do. Some of this, especially the mental aspects, can be achieved via hypnosis. Much of it -- especially some of the physical feminizing aspects -- can be done much more easily via prescription drugs (estradiol, a testosterone suppressor/blocker, and progesterone) and a Trans Support Group, which provides someone to talk to and others who are further along that you who can mentor you ... and later, you can mentor others.
A protocol has been set up to do this which requires you to jump through some hoops. These hoops have not been designed to frustrate you, though it sometimes seems that way. They have been designed to make certain that you actually want this and that it really isn't -- much as I hate to use the phrase, it is appropriate in this case -- "a phase you're going through". After all, you don't want to wake up sometime down the road and decide that this was a
BIG MISTAKE ... and you want your cock and balls and male identity and masculinity and all that other stuff back.
It won't happen because once you've used estradiol for six months, all of these changes are irreversible. Sure, you can get cosmetic surgery to remove the breasts that have grown in place of your pecs and get someone to prescribe a testosterone shot for you once every week (or whatever ... I'd have to ask my transman bf about the particulars). However, if you've known that you've been the wrong sex since you were ten -- you probably knew much earlier; ten was when you came out to your doctor -- you will have no problem finding a sympathetic therapist (required). You also need to find an endocrinologist after a month or so of counseling so you can also start taking the feminizing hormones. After one year on Hormone Replacement Therapy, you can find a surgeon for the orchiectomy (castration) and construction of female genitalia.
Hopefully, your insurance will cover the cost.
http://www.GoodRx.com will help you find the lowest cost Rx for the estradiol patch, injection, or pills in your area. (It's probably WalMart; it wasn't my long-time local pharmacy which I had dealt with for decades.)
I can cover this in much more detail in an email than in a post or PM.
You can marry your boyfriend in all fifty states and in Canada ... and in some of the states in Mexico. Marriage is not affected by your change of gender. (All you need to change gender on your Driver's License is, basically, a note from your therapist and the appropriate fee (check or money order only) and a few spare hours to spend waiting in line at the local DMV. That's all it took for me to get my gender marker changed from M to F on September 9, 2017.
As for adopting you, your bf can do that now. That is also not affected when you change your gender and/or name and get your birth certificate re-issued in your new name and gender. That's coming up shortly for me.