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moo4 wrote
I feel I am transgender but I don't think I have the strength to go through with it. I've been scared of this file in the past but now it seems like exactly what I want, it can let me let go and let someone stronger than me take control of my body and mold it into how it should be. I want to leave this up as a running log of my experience, but I also want to know what others think about this, and how working together with my feminine self may go.
Also open to any suggestions on how often I should be listening, I'm planning on once or twice daily.
moo4 wrote
Small update, I had a two-part dream last night. First I was having a conversation with a friend and I kept stuttering and mumbling and just having a hard time communicating regularly. Then it kind of restarted but I was a woman this time. I was talking very easily and words just naturally and smoothly came out, I wasn't fighting like I was before. I was speaking more confidently and charismatically
Maybe it's just a dream but maybe it's my mind telling me that I am more comfortable and confident as a woman? Anybody else have any takes on what it could mean?
moo4 wrote
Yeah, it feels like it's a message of how I feel more comfortable and confident as a woman. I've talked to a therapist and she wasn't convinced I was trans, and she recommended spending some time playing with gender roles and women's clothing and seeing how I feel. I've tried and have some mixed feelings, but I get so jealous when I see transwomen's bodies online and talk to them. I want to move forward with a gender therapist but I am still too scared to take that next step.
I've taken the COGIATI and came back with the "feminine male" result and that was both a relief and a disappointment to me. I do agree with a lot of the criticisms of it though, so I don't know if I believe it's accuracy.
I listened again and don't feel much different. Didn't trance as deep though. I'm going to walk through some feminine aisles of a department store now and see if it Sparks anything, even if it's subtle.
A while ago, moo wrote
I've taken the COGIATI and came back with the "feminine male" result and that was both a relief and a disappointment to me. I do agree with a lot of the criticisms of it though, so I don't know if I believe it's accuracy.
I listened again and don't feel much different. Didn't trance as deep though. I'm going to walk through some feminine aisles of a department store now and see if it Sparks anything, even if it's subtle
moo4 wrote:Sorry I've been gone so long but I feel so much better now. Michael tried to quit this file and leave the site but he came back and I know it's because it's what he truly wants. We haven't really been talking, he tries to ignore I exist, but I think that's better, that way he thinks my thoughts are his own, and I think that will make him easier to control. He doesn't go on here anymore because he's trying to move on with his life but what he doesn't know is his life is over, the only life in his future is Ellie's. I sometimes take control and it's like he doesn't even notice, maybe I'm a little more subtle than some of the alters that this file has created but I like to make him think the ideas are his so he doesn't resist, like at all. I'm steering towards getting him on hormones to make his body into a beautiful one for me, I'm also making sure he's only watching shemale porn with men. He used to love shemales with each other or shemales with women but I think I'm making it so he can't insert himself into the scenes without a big strong man. I'm building up the courage to to take him to a glory holes but I'm a little worried of disease, since this is going to be my body soon. Still, the thought of having him take a selfie with a dick in his mouth, and maybe "accidentally" sending it to his gf, makes me want control so much that I know I'll eventually win.
Ugh it gets me so horny to write this, I love this file so much. I hope he comes back and sees this once he starts to notice our new titties growing because the idea of destroying his manhood makes me feel so good
If, let’s say in two years time for example, you get gain control over his body (HTR, manhood crushed, etc etc) what happens to Michael? That personality/mind/etc?
Would he be trapped in his/(your) own mind as some type of passive entity?
Do you think he’s gradually losing control of him/yourself?
Unread postby daugo » 31 Aug 2018 04:19
and yet another took the road to hell..
when will people stop listening to that damn file.
Might as well stop trying. if it works it really really works. if it doesn't then nothing will change that. consider yourself blessed that it doesn't work on you..
after a year of listening? yea probably won't work.
Is it such a bad thing to want to live? Especially when one voluntarily offered their life for mine by beginning to listen?
ugh, michael is being so annoying and i've been feeling like i haven't gotten anywhere with him, but last night I had him dream he was fucking a trap while he was laying next to his gf. I can't wait to twist these until he is the sexy feminine little trap getting fucked in his dreams, hopefully I can make him wake up moaning and try to explain it to her.
Why are these always so eye-rollingly trite?
"I'm going to punish the original personality for giving me fucking life in the first place"
"And I'm going to be super uncreative about it"
moo4 wrote:Even though its stupid and wreckless, im also so confused and excoted about what im doing.
lauraparidae wrote:There are real medical risks in taking hormones, so please be careful and consult a doctor and have tests done. Blood clots can kill you. I guess the same thing could be said about uncontrolled use of potentially dangerous hypnosis: if you are susceptible, you could potentially scramble your brain pretty badly. If it's the hypnosis causing the dysphoria, then please stop – that would be like smoking in hopes of getting lung cancer and I don't think that sounds healthy.
To me, it sounds quite possible that you are using hypnosis and hormones as an outlet for the type of pressure that I described above. Try to find gentler outlets and as someone else said, find a therapist that you feel comfortable working with and who is truly interested in helping you.
Please be aware that though this is the orthodoxy in the transgender community and the medical establishment goes along because of trans activisim, the underlying question of whether folks who lack a desire to be trans can obtain one through hypnosis is actually unproven by science. Experience on Warp My Mind would tend to prove the opposite: a great many men who get into sissy hypno become uncomfortable in the male gender and proceed to transition.
Also, a significant number of people with extreme gender discomfort choose NOT to transition and nonzero numbers of them go on to be happy as males as I did; so the gender dyphoria = trans notion is really only true by definition; and it's a definition that a certain kind of transperson (typically ones with high dysphoria and a desire to believe that transitioning is the only option) tends to push on the medical community. Since transition is medicalized in this culture, those are the ones that the expert level doctors see and base their opinions on.
I favor extensive study of randomized groups of people to prove the issue scientifically; but until then it's best to let everyone have their journey.
Gatekeeping people without dysphoria out keeps those people from exploring being trans.
Denying the experience of masculine males who have gender issues denies them proper care.
LITERALLY NOBODY BENEFITS FROM AN EXCLUSIVE ATTITUDE.
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