matthewj wrote:
I tried listening to Cardigan - Artist's Resolve, but I had to force myself to listen, and all I felt during it was anger and self-hatred that I was so lazy. Also, I feel that art and entertainment are honestly needless because all they do is waste people's time instead of improving the quality of life.
Matthew, I have to agree with somehopper here. The evolution of art was a milestone in human evolution. We're a join species -- what biologists call eusocial. That means we function not primarily as individuals, but as groups. Why did we evolve speech? So that the group could benefit from the experience of the individual. Why are we subject to suggestion, as in hypnosis? So that individuals could share their experience of emotional outcomes. Art is a tool of social communication. The artist, whether he knows it or not, is a teacher, someone who conveys experience and wisdom. It isn't inessential at all, but rather fundamentally important to our species -- and even if it were, I don't think many would say that art doesn't improve the quality of our lives.
As to not posting what you draw, you might want to listen to EMG's Stop Procrastinating, which I think is on Hyno-Files.com. What you have sounds a lot like writer's block, a common affliction, or depression. I'm particularly concerned about the latter. You said that you had felt suicidal in your other post and I'm sensing the hopelessness of depression in what you say. If you're suffering from clinical depression, you should not mess around here. Go see a clinical psychologist. There are very effective treatments for depression -- both talk therapy and antidepressants are effective. It's important that you not let it go, because left untreated it could get to the point at which you're too paralyzed to seek help.