I have decided to capture an answer to a question in my last journal entry and to provide another update to our relationship in this journal entry. I guess capturing two birds with one stone as they say

First of all, to answer the question of what motivated F to have me share the detail of our lifestyle with Her sisters, my brother and my business partner, and whether it was embarrassing or empowering for Her.

The following is my opinion and understanding of F’s motivation and emotional take on the idea. I have discussed this with Her, but there is always something lost in translation as it were. I am sure that F will correct me if I have misunderstood something.

First off, Her motivation to bring those close to us up to date with our lifestyle choices is so that F can feel free to date and be Herself wherever and whenever She feels the urge. This so that if She is spotted out and about with someone other than me, it will not give rise to misconception and misinterpretation.

As far as whether F found it embarrassing to talk about it or have me bring it up with my brother and business partner. Well, no it wasn’t, but it was empowering for Her to a large extent. The fact that I had to explain the nitty gritty to two of the people that mean the most to me (with exception of my father of course) as well as having me present when F explained the same to Her Sisters, cemented my loyalty and commitment to Her and the lifestyle that we have chosen to live.

On with the update. I thought that it would be fitting to provide the detail of what has happened between F and my business partner Mike. We have both alluded to their relationship a few times.

Mike and I were entertaining a few business clients at quite an upmarket restaurant in the city. Our wives had joined us on this occasion as we wanted the dinner to be a more relaxed social type of event rather than being business orientated due to us being in meetings for the past few days. Just a chance to unwind and relax. F looked good that night. Very very good in fact and so did P, Mikes Wife.

As the night drew on and the alcohol flowed, everyone became very relaxed and jovial. It was a great night out and it seemed that everyone was enjoying themselves. I had noticed that F and Mike had been chatting quite a bit and that P had been preoccupied with one of our guests. At some stage F excused herself to go to the Ladies room and a few minutes later Mike got up saying that he was going to get some air, which meant he was going to have a smoke. I never thought anything of it. A while later F returned followed by Mike and they took their respective seats, and the conversation continued as before.

Not long after that F lent over and kissed me on the cheek and pushed something into my hand. Something that felt like lace and was warm. I knew exactly what it was. Then She whispered into my ear, “Mike is going to fuck your Wife next week while you are away on business”. I nearly had a complete hands free orgasm right there and then.

In the car on our way home, F looked at me and told me that when we get home, I need to put Her panties in a zip lock bag and to put them in my suitcase to take with me on my business trip on Monday. She told me not to touch them before She told me too.

I asked F if She was sure about Her and Mike and what if P found out and She told me that P was going interstate on the same day that I left. She was going to visit Her family for a few days and that Mike was going to be at home on his own. I asked F where they were meeting and She told me that Mike had suggested their house, but F had said that our house was safer, She later told me that She also prefers being with another man in our bed.

Later F told me that She had come out of the lady’s room to see Mike going out to the patio. She said that She had been getting “those” vibes from him the whole night and had decided to followed him outside. They chatted for a bit and then She suggest that seeing as P was going away for a few days and that I was away on my usual two week jaunt, that he should come visit Her. He had suggested going to their house and he would cook dinner, but F said he should come to our house and that they would get takeaways. He wanted to know if F was going to tell me what the plan was, and She said that She would explain everything to him later and that I would not object.

At that stage Mike did not know about our lifestyle, other than we split up and that F moved in with Andrew and that we were back together again.

Not much was mentioned about then getting together until I was about to fly out. F smiled at me and said that when I see her again, I need to know that Mike would have fucked Her. Then F said that when I speak to Mike the day after he had spent the night with Her, that I need to think about what they had done in our bed and that I needed to be respectful and not question him at all. F also reminded me not to open the ziplock bag containing Her panties until She told me too.

That night F phoned me and told me that Mike was there and that they had ordered Chinese takeaways for dinner. I heard Mike calling out to me in the background. We chatted for a while then She said that She had better not keep Mike waiting, that She loved me and that I should expect a text from her a bit later. I must be honest and say that I was lying on my bed frantically rubbing my little broken dick by that stage. I told F this later and She was not amused at all. She told me that I was being disrespectful and pathetic, and how could I feel that way knowing that Mike was about to have sex with my wife. But I did. In hindsight this was probably the start to F planning to put me in chastity when I travel.

Not long after that, I received a text from F saying that they were upstairs and that I should open the ziplock bag and enjoy it. She also said that I can touch myself, little did She know then that I had been doing that for most of the evening.

F and Mike spent the following night together as well. F had explained our relationship to Mike and he had no objection fulfilling F’s needs while P was away. She also told Mike that I could not satisfy Her sexually, but at that stage he was not aware of the self destruction that I had put myself through. This only really came out at the dinner explained in my previous journal. During the two weeks that I was away, Mike only mentioned F once on the phone and it was a tongue in cheek statement on the lines of “you need to be careful, or I might keep F for myself”. With him being married to P, there was little chance of that.

Mike and F saw each other for a few months from time to time but became aware that P had started to suspect something was happening between them, so they stopped.

It was, however, quite interesting to see them together. Especially if it was just the three of us together. They were clearly enjoying each other’s company. The lingered hug hello, the subtle longer kiss, the touching. It hurt, but I also found it intoxicating and very erotic to watch. F would sometimes pop into the office during the day, as She often did, just to say hi. On the odd occasion, She would walk right past my office and into Mikes. They would sit and chat and enjoy a cup of coffee and then She would leave. Completely ignoring me. F was making a statement, and I clearly understood it.