As mentioned in my previous journal, I am travelling this week. F phoned me this morning to ask me if she could see Andrew tonight. The conversation went something like this;

F – Andrew has asked me to come over to his place tonight. Do you mind if I go?

Me – Babe, you don’t need to ask my permission. If you want to see him, just tell me so that I don’t worry if I try call you and you don’t answer.

F – I know babe, but its just all seems so strange to me. I feel like a young woman dating for the first time again. I just need your reassurance.

Me – I’m happy for you F, you’ve found someone you like, who can give you what you need.

F – we’re just getting takeout’s and going to sit on the patio and watch the sun set.

Me – Sounds very nice. Have fun. Enjoy yourself, you deserve it.

F - …………..would it be ok if I spent the night there. I don’t feel like driving home and walking into an empty house tonight. I miss you………

Me – uhhhh, I don’t know, yes I guess it would be ok

F – you not keen?

Me – its not that, its that you seem to be getting very comfortable with him.

F – I guess I am, but not in a romantic sense. I just like his company, and he makes me feel good

Me – Well spend the night if you want to babe, do what feels right for you.

F – Thanks G, I love you.

Me – Love you too

So here I am, in my hotel room, on my own. My wife is with Andrew right now, sitting on his patio drinking wine watching the sun set.

What have I done?