I need instructions, I need someone controlling me, I need a release, a mind blowing orgasm, a complete out of body experience! I have been thnking non stop for over a week now, about having my penis castrated. Why I don't know or understand. I love my cock, in fact, i wish i could suck and kiss, lick and just put my own cock in my own mouth. I would love just to be able to lay in bed and suck myself off all the time. I've been thinking, since I can't reach my own cock... what is the use in even having the damn thing then. I could set something up, like a homemade chopper. Jerk myself off one last time, right as I start to cum. pinch the head and stroke like crazy and then chop off my own cock and ram th fucker down my own throat, sucking it hard, holding it in my hands, pumping away as I suck my own cum out of it. Then quickly put it in ice, freeze it. and have someone sew me up, fx me, save me, until i heal from my nightmare! After a few weeks, thaw out my cock... warm it up at room temp or warmer, grab a big dildo and anal fuck the crap out of myself, while licking and sucking on my own cock. spurt a huge load out of my hole, where my cock used to be... put my cut off cock in the fridge, wait a day and then pan fry my cock in hot oil on the stove, get myself all worked up again, anal fucking myself in the kitchen, pull my cooked cock from the frying pan, let it cool off as i continue to fuck myself in the ass. grab a knife and slice a few circle cuts of my own cooked cock, toss a few slices in my mouth, chew em up, savor the taste while i'm getting myself off. grab what is left of my cock, lick it, suck it, pop it in and out of my mouth a few times, rub it into my own ass... remember what it was like, when it was attached to me, hung there between my legs, rub it one last time against myself, where it used to be... now take it all, shove the entire thing into my mouth, chew as fast as i can as imstart to make myself cum, cumming from a hard dildo ass fucking I'm givng myself... as I cum, imchew harder, faster and swallow chumks of my own penis, as I spurt load after load out of my hole, where my cock once hung. I finish, grab a handful of my mess, my own hot sticky cum that litterally sprayed out of me, i quickly lick it all up... lickimg my fingers, sucking on each one, wiping between my legs to get more of my cum, i clean my hand completely.... I wish i could grow another cock and do this over and over again. i place ads, wondering if others would let me cut off their cocks, if someone really wants to be castrated, i place ads offering to do it. i love eating cocks, real cock dogs. i crave cock meat... give me your big hard cocks, i want to eat your cock. let me cut yours off!