I've hit the sissy stuff already and was really into it. However, I was looping this "limpness" training file that was telling me not to interact with my erections. I'll admit that it was getting me pretty...excited, so after about an hour, I surrendered to my baser urges. While cleaning up, I realized I was not at all ashamed or disappointed in myself. Looking in the mirror, I saw a man. Inside and out. I always felt secure in my masculinity, but accepted I had a strong feminine side...mostly showing itself during my occasional cross-dressing. It might have been me considering what might be if it actually worked, or just my masculine side asserting itself. But I felt a seriously strong rejection to the files I've been using. I realize I haven't even touched my girl's wardrobe since I've been playing with this stuff either. I think it might be the insulting, or aggressive language in them. Or, maybe I just have a rebellious personality or something. Either way, I feel I must shy away from these girly files to avoid losing my naturally girly self any further. I still would like to continue to test my I-Doser combo method, and possibly record my own script soon, I did just write one today.