Yep. My interest in any sort of erotic material waxes and wanes with time. I figure that's a normal thing; nothing bad, nothing new.

Since I last updated this journal, I've been somewhat active on the forums, mostly sharing my opinions on various sorts of files and telling other people to take the plunge into being a content creator. I've also started using the "Hypnogirl" series on this site for my 'female transformations' (although since I started using them... several months ago, I think. "Started" doesn't quite describe it).

I've probably taken enough breaks to reduce the effectiveness of the files in the long run(due to cycling libido), but I have gotten substantial results. The series has a lot of mental feminization suggestions that could be interpreted as permanent if the user so desires. I'm not at that point, and I might not ever be, but the files do amplify my "feminine" urges while I'm listening; primarily the desire to wear female clothing and otherwise encase myself in delicate things like perfume and long, girly hair.

My ability to hallucinate female forms hasn't really advanced as much since about a year ago, although I am more reliably able to perceive the tactile feel of my body as female, and occasionally get flashes of clothing. Surprisingly, using the Hypnogirl series has improved my orgasms, although most of this is due to me getting better at edging and slowing the rate at which I climax when I decide to go over. When listening, I find I am more willing to do fetishy things, and that opens up some "forbidden" pleasures.

Either way, I've learned a few things about myself.

Firstly, in addition to my previously confirmed femme fetishes (feminization, silk/satin, lesbians), I seem to be sexually interested in what I'm calling (for want of a better term) "soft encasement". This doesn't involve the restraint aspects that vacuum bed users and other normal encasers seem to treasure, but I do like being completely covered in certain fabrics in a way that I can move around and furthermore have them move around me.

Secondly, I am probably going to go off the deep end when I get my own home. This means I will, after a while, probably end up owning a lot of female outerwear (especially of the formal/dressy sort), a few strategic bits of lingerie, and some specialized fetish items - most notably a zentaisuit and some sort of female mask, probably anime-styled unless the realistic ones start looking a LOT better for their price.

Thirdly, I am not at (and may never reach) a point where being male in my day-to-day life becomes undesirable. I seem to be pretty attached to my beard, and that's not just by definition. Autogynophila aside, maleness retains certain societal advantages due to millennia of needless misogyny, such as the ability to not be vain and overall quick grooming.

Outside the sex tarp, my life is going well, although I'm in a bit of a transition state. I've had an opportunity to help my family out with some research projects they've been doing, they've been able to help me out with my creative projects. I'd say more, but I prefer to remain anonymous.