i used to listen to crotchaddict. then i had a bad experience & stopped. but recently someone i met told me to listen to it again - sort of like an order. and i did. now everywhere i go i'm staring at crotches. and i'm furious with boys for wearing such baggy pants nowadays. you can't see anything. last night in the supermarket i saw a man in a plaid shirt & tight jeans, with a bulge in the front. i was so happy! then i was in the liquor aisle and some kid was there, sort of a punker, and we exchanged momentary conversation - all while i'm staring at his crotch. and i have the biggest need to suck cocks. i haven't yet, but it's getting stronger. i've started to dream about it. when i sit in the cafeteria (i'm in college, or have been this semester) and have conversations with friends, after awhile it kicks in and i spend the rest of the time watching all the jocks walk around in their mesh shorts & .. well, everyone. all guys. it's terrifying but good at the same time. i can't help it.