So I had another erotic dream last night, this time with my wife where she pegged me. Short dream.

I created another hypnosis file about obsession, but this time obsessive fantasies, but made it gender and fetish neutral. This is the file I listened to last night before falling asleep and having that short erotic dream about my wife aformentioned.

It's actually funny, I always get very powerful sexual emotions and sexiness from my dreams, which then makes me want to seek out that fetish after awakening that day. So if I have a gay dream, I want to pursue my sissy fetish, if I have a dream with a woman and see sexiness of her tits, I want to pursue my woman fetish.

So I'm now thinking I want to focus on either obsessive fantasies (while awake), or sexual dreams, that are either gender & fetish neutral, or focus on women or my wife. Because having these sexy dreams seem to access stronger sexual emotions, and are quite fun.

The mind and thoughts are very unpredictable, especially with ocd. When I did my file obsessive sexual thoughts and feelings for women a few months back, I'd usually get them about women I met or dated in past, women I've worked with or women I currently know, and even one of my own adult female cousin. This becomes very dangerous territory, because if I'm not careful, with enough reinforcement, you can mistake these thoughts and feelings from the internal reality, for a false external reality, and may end up making sexual advances to past girlfriends, co workers, or your friends girlfriends or wives.

There's one thing to always remember, especially if you have responsibilities like a marriage or children, but even when single.

THE FANTASY, THE INTERNAL REALITY, IS MORE FUN THAN THE ACTUAL REALITY.

Even before erotic hypnosis, if you are into a type of porn fetish you don't really want to be a part of, that fetish is only fun and mind warping while your horny, and once you bust a nut, you realize you don't want that fetish in your life. For example anal porn which I liked for a long time. The first time I gave my wife anal without a condom, and my dick stank of shit, and I couldn't wash that stink off for awhile, was the day I realized watching women or shemales get anal in porn, the fantasy, was more exciting that the actual reality. Sure it could be done better, my wife could go through preperation or whatever, but whats the point when I don't have to worry about that with pussy. What's the point of going through all that effort for a fantasy I've had for a long time. The same goes for becoming a gay or straight sissy being pegged. It's a lot of effort and will cause a lot of trouble and hurt in my life, with family, friends, and my current wife and children, just to fulfill a fantasy, an internal reality. It's quite honestly ridiculous, especially when we know we can change this internal reality through hypnosis. 

So my current obsessive sexual fantasies file, while gender and fetish neutral, still haves safeties, so the mind doesn't wonder into the wrong things. The main one being the sexual fantasies are always of complete strangers. This way you don't end up making a move on anyone you know personally, because your fantasies are of strangers. But even this could backfire, if for some reason you gain a fetish to sleep around with complete strangers.

The safest file I can make, is having obsessive sexual fantasies and erotic dreams, of having vanilla pussy sex with my wife, and finding it and her so sexy and erotic. This way you don't get into any pegging fantasies, or giving anal fantasies, or any extreme fetish (like becoming a gay sissy) that just wastes your time. And once the fantasies and dreams get ahold, they turn into your reality. Because as aformentioned, when I wake up from an erotic dream of whatever it is, I want to pursue that feitsh.

One of my find wife sexy files, when it hit, just grabbing her breasts through her clothing, was a deep sexual emotional rush. But instead of waiting for the usual hypnosis to kick in to find my wife's breasts/pussy/body etc... sexy, and then swinging the other way. You instead use dreams and obsessive fantasies/thoughts to reinforce the feitsh/sexuality, to keep you on track.

I think waking up from an erotic dream and pursing that fetish is very powerful, because when you're dreaming, you experience your internal sexual emotions the strongest and unfiltered. The hypnosis hits your dreams harder and faster, than changing your external waking reality. The dream nearly always feels more sexier and stronger, than looking at the fetish porn related to that dream after awakening.

Anyway this is probably not a very interesting journal for most people. I'm going to prefix my journal entries with "MJ Part #" so the title can be changeable and reflect the entry better.